Death Blog

2011-12-14T19:47:00.002+08:00

今天与 Samuel 和 ChoonHiang 到 West Mall 看《一泡而红》。很好笑，好感人，学到了不少人生道理。很好看。庄米雪的马来西亚腔挺赞的。小鬼的台湾腔也很帅。哈哈！有好几段真的很感动。自己一个人看应该会掉泪吧？

阿娇的阿嫲说得没错：一个人如果不能做自己喜欢的事，那么活着还有什么意义？阿娇坚忍不拔的精神也只得佩服。虽然经过一次次的失败，也有想过要放弃，可是最终还是达到自己的梦想。

可是人生真的可以不顾一切地追梦吗？我认为还是要顾及到一些元素。就像薪水足不足于让家人过一整个月。

我要向梦想前进！《一泡而红》：不放弃

肥仔说：人迟早都会死。追到梦了，成功了，才死，不是更好吗？

2011-10-14T18:01:00.002+08:00

终于考完了！！！

因为快捷华文O水准只差七/八个月，接下来的博客条目都会用华文写。看不懂的就对不起啦！

在文书的期间不禁让我想到将来的事。教育，事业，结婚，买房买车，等等。。。不是因为没有目标。是因为目标太多，不知要选什么！好想时间就停留在这里。。。什么决定都不必做，需管的事也较少。时间爷爷！您可不可以停下来看看风景还是什么的？不要走得那么快行吗？

考试是考完了。接下来是看成绩。希望我没有退步。也希望我不会令自己失望。可是。。。期望越高失望就越深吧？

中三过得真快。一转眼一年又过了。明年就中四了。会考会成为每个人读书的理由。压力也更大了。毕业后，还能经常见到中学的死党吗？毕业后，要去哪里呢？毕业后，一定会怀念中学的时候吧？嗨。。。我不想长大！

2011-09-16T20:48:00.002+08:00

I'd like to say, however things change, however we change, when we're still friends, I'll always be there when you need me, when you need someone to talk to.

I know I've been an asshole this whole time. I'm sorry.

Yes, I miss those times, but no, I don't regret my choices.

I know I'm unreasonable. I'm sorry.

不了解我，请不要装得很懂我。我会发火。

I doubt things would ever be the same again. Oh well, I just have to go through this.

Be strong I will.

2011-09-11T22:45:00.002+08:00

诉苦干吗？只会让大家知道我的弱点、我的无能。不说出来的好处更多。说了，就多一个无辜的人一起承担痛苦。两个人难过，不如一个人难过。说了，那个人也未必明白我的感受、我的思想，未必能帮得上忙。我不想连累我身边的人了。就让他们快乐地生活吧！何必管我那么多呢？我要学会坚强，学会独立。靠自己摆平所有现在面对的困难，靠自己承担现在的压力。我会证明给那些瞧不起我的人知道我没那么没用。我会证明给命运看，我没那么容易被打败。

After solving all these problems,

When I meet a new one,

I can proudly say,

"I have met things much worse than this before."

2011-08-26T20:22:00.002+08:00

Yes, I know, I've not been updating for like 4 months? LOL

Many things happened. Not planning to list all here though. But, to summarize everything in 3 words, it'll be "Things have changed".

Things aren't the same anymore. I'm not talking about from sec 2 to sec 3, or before major to after major. It's the before reviving blog and after reviving blog.

I'm not sure if this change is good or bad. It may seem bad on the surface, but it's gonna teach me to see life at another angle, and to sought solutions from other possibilities.

I know I've hurt many, and I'm hurting many, and I'll hurt many. I'm not going to find any excuses. I'm sorry for all the hurt I've brought. Really, I'm sorry.

I'm not going to rant everything here, because that would be an uber long post. And I have no intention to type for so long. xD

Whether I'm still updating my blog, depends on my mood. LOL So long readers!

2011-04-12T21:52:00.002+08:00

12th of April 2011... What an eventful day.

First, it's Hua Yi Concert Band's SYF Central Judging for Band.

Second, Hua Yi Concert Band's sec 4s are stepping down.

Third, the results of SYF.

SYF... reached school at 5. tio scolded by Mr Tan and practiced. haiz... seriously... What the hell am I doing? Drum major already still do this kind of things...

Bus supposed reach our school at 7. But as usual, it came late. Woodwind bus reach at 7.20 and Brass bus reach at 7.40. Mdm Angrenni boarded the woodwind bus and register when she reached. xD Brasses reached at 8.36 when we were supposed to reach at 8.30. But since we registered, we didn't get penalized. Phew. xD

Tuned and rehearsed for the last time in the tuning room and off we go to the stage.

Singapore flyer was relatively okay I think. But some tunings are out. Ride was terrifying. I was so afraid I couldn't reach the high note, but I MADE IT!!! WOOTS! XD and i guess some parts we were not in time, and yea, that thing too.

Went back to school to pack and went lunch with the other 2 retards at KFC.

Went back to school at 4.30 to go back to SCH to listen to results. it went like this:

Announcer: Band number 129, North Vista Secondary School... Silver

*Claps and Cheers*

Announcer: Band number 130, Hua Yi Secondary School... ... ... Silver

*Emo claps*

Announcer: Band number 131, Beatty Secondary School... Silver

*Claps and Cheers*

Everyone was quite emo after the announcement of results though we had expected it. Some even cried.

Band, we've practiced hard to maintain a silver. good job. (: Those who thinks you have did your best, I salute you. Those who are guilty, now you know the seriousness. Do better than best 2 years later and maintain the silver medal or maybe clinch the gold medal. All the best!

We went to dinner at jp and went separate paths of dinner next. LOL

Sec 4 seniors are stepping down... Sec 3s are supposed to lead the band now. Are we capable? LOL or am I capable of leading lower brass? Can I be a leader as good as Chuanjie and Senmian? No use being not confident now... I have to take up the post. WE have to lead the band. Jiayou to all sec 3s! :D

Sec 4s! Do come back often! Hahas! You all know we will miss you all. But of course, do well in your o levels too and make the band proud of you. :D we're glad and proud to have all of you as our seniors and leaders. Thank you so much for the guidance for the past few years. You guys deserve a long rest. (:

2011-04-10T17:02:00.003+08:00

"Maturity is the ability to stick with a job until it's finished; the ability to do a job without being supervised; the ability to carry money without spending it; the ability to bear injustice without wanting to get even."

-Abigail Van Buren

SYF is 1 day plus away...

Hmm... Why do I feel so guai lan nowadays? xD Having more and more evil thoughts than usual. :P

Haiz... nothing to post also. Bye~

2011-04-07T21:48:00.002+08:00

Had been busy with band and... homework(?). Okay, the latter is obviously a lie. Hahas. Had not been doing homework lately... Excuse is no time. But today, I miraculously finished my SS worksheet (which is supposed to be our March holiday homework), and Bio ws (this is given out today). No, no sense of accomplishment/achievement. A sense of time wasted though. =/

Today marks the 4th day of SYF central judging for band. Our school's dance troop and drama club had gone for their SYF. Band's the next. Dance and Drama had both gotten bronze. Will we be the third to come back with a bronze? Or the first to come back with a silver or hopefully a gold?

I don't know why. I quite certain I will be nervous on the stage of Singapore Conference Hall. Even during our sound check day. The feeling of sitting on that particular stage, just makes you feel so... NERVOUS! To make things worse, during SYF, there will be judges. Not just 1 or 2, but 7!!! All 7 judges scattered around the centre part of Singapore Conference Hall, listening to us attentively, trying to pick up our mistakes or strength. I do hope it's the second one. Yes, Mr Tan says the audience's seat will be so dark that you can see nothing. But you do know that there are judges! *Deep breathe* Let's hope that I will stay calm on the 12th of April at 9.15am. Otherwise, all my mistakes would find their way back to me.

Seeing the attendance of band practices and sectionals is disappointing. Good job to those who make an effort to come. Sec 1s, the junior band, knows that they are supposed to come for sectionals. Why aren't they here? Nevermind about the sec 1s. The seniors, you guys are going for SYF in the next 5 days. FIVE!!! Don't you absentees think we have to grab hold of all our time and make use of them wisely? Please do make an effort to come for band practices. Those that comes for band practices may have make sacrifications. Don't let them down.

I'm afraid. As Mr Tan said, "If everything goes smoothly, you all should have no problem getting a silver, given you play Ride". What if, what if we screw it up on the competition day? What if we get bronze? I really don't want to disappoint Mr Tan, disappoint Sweeling, Nicholas, other ex-members, disappoint the band. Let's work towards a gold, if not, a silver. (:

There's so much more to work on, but there's so little time! 5 days! You can even count the number of days with you fingers! There's just too much things to work on...

I guess I have to chill. If this goes on, I will be freaking every Huayi Bandsmen who reads my blog out. Gambate HuaYiConcertBand! :D

2011-03-29T21:36:00.002+08:00

I've never liked a quote so much as this. I call this person who create this quote a genius.

Everything is giving me a headache, literally. School, homework, band, fucking teachers like blinky cheong...

haiz... since I'm so tired, so exhausted, I shall spare Blinky Cheong today. I shall not share my rarely used vocabulary here.

And, I seriously dun see a need in homework. Why can't they just let us revise ourself? Isn't it the same? If those students don't want to revise, they wouldn't bother doing their homework either. We have no much time left after we came back from our CCAs. And yes, we do have CCAs, unlike you teachers. We have to finish your pathetic homework, then there's no time left for revision! In fact, there's no time for anything! Even homeworks... We, too, need sleep, food and some rests. Please, for once, show us a good example, be considerate.

14 more days left to SYF. I'm wondering if anyone is worried. Or at least, if anyone is even aware of the days left. Or even worse, do they even know when our SYF is? I seriously don't see any hard-er work put in by many. Do you guys know what SYF is? It's a competition for goodness sake. We're competing with secondary school bands all over Singapore. Is this the best you can practice? Don't let yourself regret. Don't make others who want a satisfying result be disappointed. Work with them towards all our common goal. In the end, it's not them who are happy with the results. All of us will. Persevere for 14 days and it will be over. Hang on. I know it's tiring. I myself feels tired as well. But you have to work for what you want. A Chinese saying goes: 天下没有免费的午餐. Translated: There's no free lunch in the world. You have to work for what you want, or what you need. Be extra serious for this period of time. Then, you all can relax and enjoy for all you want.

Dance's SYF is tomorrow. All the best for them! Hope all the performing arts get gold yea? xD Jiayous! :D

Been deproving in tuba skills. Used to had more air to play loud. Now, couldn't even play louder than juniors. What a disgrace... Is it the different method of warming up? I used to play loud, but can only hold 8 or 12 beats. Now, I try holding the note for 16 beats, I have no enough air. Guess I should train like how I used to. Heck care all the beats! Focus on diaphragm power!

Okay... guess I shall sleep at 9pm every weekday from tomorrow onwards. Dad had troubles calling me to wake up every morning. Today, he go factory den set alarm clock for me, I couldn't wake up. *Hint to teachers* HAIZ! SLEEP IS SO IMPORTANT! NO SLEEP = NO ATTENTION IN CLASS.

Sadly, I don't think any teachers would read it. LOL But if they do, I'll get into trouble ya? LOL that's all. Nights people~ Gonna have a good sleep.

2011-03-24T21:43:00.002+08:00

YES! Choonhiang and Minghong coming back tomorrow. It's been so boring since they left. The awkward silence because Minghong isn't talking. And feelings bottled up because Choonhiang's not there...

Been missing them since the 2nd day of their camp. Really hope they enjoyed, because I am enjoying in school! LOL

Had not been thinking properly and correctly. Yes, I have to change. I think I said this many times already but still, no results. Hope this time it works.

你总是心太软心太软
You're always soft-hearted, soft-hearted

独自一个人流泪到天亮
Crying till the dawn alone

你无怨无悔的爱着那个人
Loving someone without complains and regrets

我知道你根本没那么坚强
I know you are not that strong

你总是心太软心太软
You're always soft-hearted, soft-hearted

把所有问题都自己扛
Solving every problems on your own

相爱总是简单相处太难
Though love is easy, getting along is difficult

不是你的就别再勉强
Don't force yourself if it's not yours

The whole song is basically saying this girl being too soft-hearted and loving her man devotedly and forgot about herself. Although I'm not in love, this song never fails to wake me up. I must stop being soft-hearted. What must be done, have to be done. There's no other way out.

And I realize, as the generation gets younger, the responsibility and respect changes accordingly. In the past, women give birth at the age of 14 or 15. Now, women give birth only above 18. Why? Because we(both males and females) lack responsibilty. The women and men in the past is able to take care of their child when they were only in their teens. Now, we already have problems commiting to our own CCAs? I don't get it.

Few generations above us, they are all respectful people. Now, our generation and younger, do what they think is "right", so they talk back.

Seriously, what is wrong with the discipline? Must you all be driven only by punishments? Must you guys do what has to be done only when there's no other way? Don't you guys have any initiative at all?

Juniors, respect your seniors. That's the least you can do to repay them. If the previous batches can do it, I don't see why you don't. Having fun and respecting your seniors is different thing. When it is the time to be seniors, you jolly well respect your seniors. When it's time to play and not be so serious, you respect them as how you respect your friends(who is older). They are your seniors. They are called seniors and they are there for a reason. They don't deserve your disrespect and all your bunch of crap. When they ask you to do something, it is for your own good, if not, then for the band. You wouldn't want your juniors to treat you the same way as how you treat your juniors now. They'll learn and follow you. I regretted not respecting my own seniors. Start learning how to respect your seniors now, before the sec 1s comes in. Mark my words.

No, I'm not going to be soft-hearted again. Time to be firm and still. Nothing's gonna make me change. I'll work towards what I want. Time to lead.

2011-03-19T21:11:00.002+08:00

Of course, no one is perfect. But don't everyone wants to get to as close as perfect?

Intensive lower brass sectionals starts next week. But I think we're starting too late. SYF is just 24 days away.

After hearing so many bands, I start worrying and panicking. Why are all the bands so good all of a sudden? While Huayi is still not progressing? I don't get it. Is it the members? Or the school? Either way, we still have to put in our best in practicing. And if we really do practice hard enough, why the heck are we still not improving?!

Jurongville, Bendemeer, Mayflower, Christ Church blah blah blah. They played so freaking good during the exchanges. Why oh why isn't Huayi progressing?! If Huayi is playing the same piece as them, I bet they would win us totally.

Huayi's aim is gold. But look at other bands! They are more qualified for gold than us! How could we aim for gold, and not work for it? Gold doesn't come free! You have to put in effort and work for it!

Only 24 days. 24 golden days to work towards our common goal: GOLD. Please. Preservere this last 24 days. Put in your best for this last 24 days.

2011-03-13T10:53:00.002+08:00

People! Don't give up! It's just a few weeks till the competition. Hang in there!

By the looks of what Szefann and Siwei posted on facebook, I start wondering. Are we stressing the sec 2s too much? Are we being too selfish to get a gold and forgo their stress? Then, again, aren't the seniors stress too? Aren't Mr Tan stress too? Gahh... what to do?!

I guess the least I can do, is like what everyone else is doing. To encourage. SYF is just near the corner. No doubt everyone is stressed. But just hang in there. The results would be satisfying. Even if we stayed in silver, or get a gold. Because we all know, we put in our best.

Just don't give up now. What's the point of learning your lovely instrument for 1 and a half year, and then you're ready to get defeated by a national competition? This is, I will say, stupid. Come on people, being a musician, you have to be perservering. Be strong! And this attribute will help you succeed not only in your musical life, but your reality life as well.

Band members, perservere through this hard period, and the results will be satisfying. Jiayou (:

2011-03-11T22:55:00.002+08:00

"Decide carefully, exactly what you want in life, then work like mad to make sure you get it."

Today's practice. Hahaha. Chuan Jie's doctor asked him not to come for practice. Weizie and Yaoren had to decorate classroom. Yikai and Senmian got lesson. Nadhirah was sick. I was the only lower brass member in band for the first few hours. LOL

Solo-ing was fun and challenging. I didnt thought I could support the band with my standard. But turned out that Weizie and Yaoren could even hear me from their 3rd storey classroom. Hahas. Sense of achievement. :D

No major mistakes made. Mr Tan didnt shoot tuba this time. Was really surprised. Thought I wasn't loud enough, or whatever mistake I could have made. The only thing is that... I keep running out of air. LOL other than that, everything is fine. WOOTS!

If ChoonHiang didnt say anything, I wouldn't have realise I really did improve. The last time during december we went to Mayflower to practice. The whole tuba section went for their tution while I was solo-ing for Mayflower Band. At that time, I could hear my awful tone and I wasn't loud enough. Today, yes, I still hear my not nice tone, but I think it's still better than the december. And most importantly, the band can hear me. I can finally help Chuan Jie in his burden for playing loud. :D

I regret only to realise the importance of sectionals at late sec 2. I remember I used to complain sectionals was so boring. But if you know what you have to work on, it's really really useful. During practice, you cannot keep on practicing the specific part you need to work on during main band practices, as Mr Tan have to play other songs as well. Sectionals is the only time you can work on your flaws.

I have to admit. Conducting sectionals was enjoyable. I don't know why too. People I know seems to hate to conduct sectionals. But for me, I really do enjoy. Teaching both Huayi Lower Brass and Mayflower Tuba (Though only once) was enjoyable. Thanks for allowing me to conduct for you guys and thanks for not giving me any problems. (:

2011-03-10T22:25:00.002+08:00

Problem solved. (: Glad.

That's actually my purpose of posting today. LOL But since I already start posting, I'll make the post longer. xD

Tomorrow is Friday. I'm nervous for band practice. Chuan Jie's not going to be there again. I'm afraid tomorrow will end up like Tuesday. Lips and fingers, please don't fail me tomorrow.

SYF is just less than 1 month away. EVERYONE PLEASE BUCK UP! I know tuba section is the one who needs more time. But still, jiayou! :D

Hua Yi Secondary School Concert Band would be going for her 6th SYF on the 12/April/2011 and it starts at 8.30am. Lips and fingers and eyes, please don't fail me on that day too. PLEASE!

Fun will be followed up after the intensive practices for SYF. Look forward to it! :D

March holiday is coming. Sec 3 camp is coming. SYF is coming. So much to be excited for but at the same time so much to worry for.

Let's hope everything goes well! :D

PS: This is like my shortest post ever since I came back to blog again? LOL

2011-03-09T19:15:00.002+08:00

Seriously... The school is trying to turn everyone in to a no life bastard/bitch.

Like, hello? This is our life. You already made school compulsory, now you make us go to your total-waste-of-time activities? This is OUR life. We get to choose which path we want to go. I seriously don't understand why school do all this shit. Isn't originally a place for us to study? What has it become now? Isn't studying stressful and tiring enough? They still want us to go to their activities?

What if we can't finish our homeworks because of that activity? What if we don't get a good result for our CCA? What if we don't achieve a good grade for our exams? No, they don't hold any responsibility. All the faults comes back to us, the students.

Yes, I may be exagerating. But, really, I don't see a need in all this crap.

What happen to the "Freedom of speech", the "Freedom to control your life", the "Freedom to... make mistakes?" Teachers even want to control want we say, what we do, our daily lives... It's as if we are living for the school, for the teachers, for our assignments. Say something inapproriate, they call you "a person with no respect". Do something that's unique, they call you "a person who do things without thinking". Make a mistake, and they say you don't listen in class.

Enough of ranting. Let's enter a despairing topic for the body of the post after an angry introduction.

Band yesterday was another worst practice I had. Chuan Jie was absent for band practice. I thought I could lead tuba section to the end of practice. But everything just went wrong.

We played 4 pieces yesterday. Singapore Flyer, Ride, Dawn of a New Day, and Choreography. The most mistake-proof is Ride. Though I think we sound very much different if ChuanJie is here. Singapore Flyer gave Mr Tan the most headache. Tuba section... I don't know what happened. It just collapsed yesterday.

Even me, just what was wrong with me yesterday? Everything was going haywire. From tuning to rhythm, from tone to loudness. Singapore Flyer slowed down. Ride high note couldn't reach. Dawn of a new day slowed down pathetically for 1 whole beat. Choreography... The whole tuba section just played with it's own rhythm. Every tuba players had their own speed...

Yes, I did felt demoralised. And when Mr Tan said we are all making mistakes now because Chuan Jie is not around. He carried on asking: "He is not going to be around in one month's time you know? How can you still depend on him?" I felt even more discouraged. As the most senior member in tuba after Chuan Jie, how could I not able to support my own section when our SL is not present for practice?

But I know I cannot stay being so discouraged. I have a duty to do. I have to take up ChuanJie's role as a senior. I have to stay strong. I have to get better, I have to improve.

Mr Tan is really striving for a gold. Otherwise, he wouldn't even bother the small details and make us play till it's perfect. But are we also striving for a gold? Is our goal the same as Mr Tan's? Even if we have our GOAL as GOLD, are we striving for it? I'm afraid. I really am. We've worked so hard. Why not work even harder to have more guarantee in achieving a gold? Don't give up, Jun Rong, you have to stay strong and perservere. There's no other way out.

Let's head on to a... I-don't-know-what-to-call-it ending of the post.

I don't know what to say. It started from a very small thing. Furthermore, it was a misunderstanding. All of us know that ourselves. How are you able to stay angry at us since yesterday, because of that damn small thing?

Qinyan has not been laughing as much since that "incident". Because you still wouldn't want to talk to us. Because you are still angry for I-don't-know-what reason. But seriously, I don't see any reason you should or can still be angry at us. We've already apologised. And we did not only apologised once. We apologised multiple times, just because of that small misunderstanding! We also did apologised sincerely. It's not like we said "sorry" insincere or what. Why are you still ignoring us?!

I really don't understand how you can stay angry. Even so, we still include you in our daily conversation or ask you to join us for recess or after school. And what did we get in return? Your attitude, your ignorance. I was at first hurt, by you ignoring us. But now, I'm pissed. How could you just ignore us? Aren't we your friends? TOO?!

We waited for you outside the classroom for you to be ready to join us to go recess or morning assembly. But you returned our favor by acting like you don't know us, and walk straight and fast to your friends.

Enough is enough. If you don't recognise us as friends, I won't waste efforts trying to gain your forgiveness too. Plus, IT'S JUST A GOD DAMN SMALL MISUNDERSTANDING!

I'm not detesting you. But I don't guarantee I won't in the future. I post, because I don't get what you think and yes, I'm pissed. And maybe you will read it and talk to Qinyan because you might just be soft hearted. However pissed I am, I want to let you know, you're currently still in my best friends list. I hope I will not remove you from that list.

Sorry if you readers are tuning in everyday and see new posts and thinks it's irritating to read on or whatever. Have a lot of thoughts these days. Have to vent it out.

2011-03-06T22:48:00.002+08:00

How nice would it be, to tune out from the world and indulge into music.

What if, you wake up one day, and finds that you are deaf, and the only thing you can hear is music. Is that a good thing or a bad thing?

Think about it. You don't have to care you can't hear, and what you can hear is one of the world's most beautiful sound/noise. You can finally be free from all your burdens. No more studying, no more relationships problems... Life would be so free.

As much as music is a wonderful thing to listen to, if you can only hear music, wouldn't it be boring? Think about the things you can't hear for the rest of your life. Laughters, jokes, sweet things said by people, etc.

I was plugging in my earpiece in MRT just now on the way to Pasir Ris. As my earphones were those types that when you plug in, you can hear nothing outside, I can hear nothing except for the music which is playing from my iPhone. The scene in the MRT was beautiful with the music. But at the same time, it felt empty. I see my friends laughing happily, but I couldn't hear their laughters. I can only hear the music...

Music is really a wonderful thing. It can make you happy or cry for no particular reason. When I was listening to my iPhone, I smiled to myself upon the thought of my friends. All of them smiling happily. I couldn't use words to describe, but I smiled broadly upon this thought. All my friends were laughing and enjoying themselves so happily, so carefree. Amazing how music can bring you to a totally different world eh?

Just now in the MRT was one of the rare times I used my heart to listen instead of my ears. And the music was beautiful. It was beyond words that can describe it. Although I had heard my iPhone songs for many many times, I think just now, it's the nicest of all. It's like soe kind of magic had happened. Turning the music into a nicer tune, a piece that touched me.

Entering to the world of music seems like you need a certain key. First, you have to know music. You have to know how each instruments operate, or how they sound, or how you are going to play them. Next, you have to learn how to listen. Then, you have to finally open the "door" and "see" what the piece of music is trying to say. There is no particular answer. Everyone's view is different. But everyone's answer is the same: "Beautiful". Why? Because what they see, cannot be described in words. And "Beautiful" is the closest word to what they could use to describe what they "see".

Now, what I'm going to see without my eyes is my dream. LOL Bye readers, your author for this blog is going to bed.

2011-03-05T23:17:00.002+08:00

hahas, this quote is so freaking true.

ok, so, everyone is so tensed up, so serious suddenly. Hey, people, yes, we're sec 3 and SYF is coming, we're going to be the most senior batch when the sec 4s step down.

But being depressed over studies and being angry or disappointed of band is not going to help. You guys have put in enough effort. We can always study together. (: As for band, it'll be okay. (:

Please oh please, dun ever make me cheer both of u up again, Qinyan and Choon Hiang. Stay happy please.

Alright, enough of nagging. Shi Hui once told me she scored a top ten position once but she was not at all happy. Why? Because she neglected her friends just because she wanted to score well for her exam. Then, she told me she regretted neglecting her friends just for the sake of good results. She ended her story with "I can give up anything for my friends".

PS: This has nothing to do with studies. Don't get stressed up.

That was one of the sweetest thing I've heard. I had been saying how much my friends worth to me. But can I really sacrifice anything for them? Can I be a friend as good as Shi Hui? I'm not sure.

I have no idea why I post this too. I just feel random.

Let's make the post longer with another sweet thing I heard. LOL

There was this once, so long ago even before the sec 2s join the main band, when I was extra emo during band practice. Chuan Jie was pestering me why am I so emo. I faked a few smiles and teased him abit to assure him I was alright. hahas.

When I went home and switched on my computer and logged in to msn, Chuan Jie started a chat with me. He asked "Why today so emo in band?". I was unsure of what to reply. He added with "Is it because your friends say band suck again? Tell me who. I go bash that person up". I was touched. Hahas. Funny how small little things can make me happy. I asked Chuan Jie once, if his friends commented that band suck just to irritate him. And he actually remembered. This insensitive senior of mine, actually cares. Thanks, senior. (:

Shi Hui and Chuan Jie may have forgotten what they had said to me. But I've always remembered it. (:

Ok, post long enough to end. LOL

2011-02-28T21:14:00.002+08:00

What a rare weekday that I actually have time to post. LOL nah, actually, I'm just heck caring homework that's not due tomorrow. HAHS!

Seriously, (Don't Laugh) I really think I've grown mature as compared to end of sec 2. Or even the beginning of 3 (Which is like early Jan?). I know I act childish-ly when I'm with my friends. But really, I really really think that's not childish. That's having fun. LOL

I surprised myself with the way I think and what I say to my peers. As compared to the old me, I would have agreed with their complaints. But now, I'm standing in another position and looking at a different view. Explaining to them what's wrong and what's not.

Maybe I'm changing because I'm preparing myself to be a leader. hahas. Tough job, yea. But really gonna give it all my best. It'll gonna be fun! :D One whole year of leading something you like. Sounds great yea? Excited for it. ^^

Progress report stunned me. Not trying to discriminate any of my schoolmates who is reading my blog. LOL But really. I've never expected myself to get 5 A1s, 1 A2 and 2 B4s. How I wish this is O levels. LOL

Okay, enough of results. SYF is coming up. In a month's time. Jiayou for all band members! Strive for gold yea? :D

After SYF, it will be the planning of band camp, band chalet(?), band outing(?), and section outing. LOL oh yea, there's POP too. We'll then have fun and play fun songs! :D Juniors will start playing with the main band which is when the seniors will have to do most of the teachings. Great year ahead! :D

Oh yea, I just realize all my posts all long. Does this indicate that I'm long winded? LOL

2011-02-27T18:41:00.002+08:00

Yes, this is the band I belong to. HYCB. You will always rock. (:

Yesterday was our school's public concert. We performed 3 pieces. Symphonic Episode 1, Ride and Disco Party 3. I'm proud to say all of us worked hard for it. Which makes this performance a success no matter how much we screwed it up. (: Hua Yi Band members, once again, I'm proud of you. Continue to rock on.

When the curtain opens, I hear the thunderous clappings and the roars of cheers. This really motivates me to become a music performer. Although I can't see the audience there because the hall is dark, although I know some of the audience don't come to the concert just for band, although I know some of the audience don't appreciate music, the claps and cheers really was appreciated. The quietness when we were playing was also appreciated. (:

Symphonic Episode 1 is a slow nice song. I hope not many of the audience fell asleep while listening to it because our next piece is Ride. LOL Disco party 3 hyped up the audience thanks to Chao Xiang's "I Can't give you anything but my love" solo. hahas. Great job to all soloists! not only for this song but for the 2 other songs! :D You guys had practiced hard. (:

The audience clapped and cheered once again when we finished performing. The curtain closed and band's performance is over. We head back to our dressing room and packed up our instruments. This is the time when I truly felt the closeness of the band. The whole band was taking pictures, cheering and playing together. I was touched by this moment. I've always thought Hua Yi Concert Band is not at all bonded. But yesterday proved my wrong.

The finale made me more certain that HYCB is bonded. We did our HYCB wave at the back of the stage while the hip hop is pathetically dancing at the front, stealing the spot light. When we were singing the school song, HYCB members sang the loudest. We even waved our hands when we sang. HAHAS!

The concert is finally over. HYCB proceed back to our dressing room to get our instruments and stands to the lorry. And we went back to school.

Everyone was exhausted by then. Some went back home, some went for dinner, then went back home.

HYCB, I'm proud of you, and you'll be in my heart after I graduate. Now, SYF'11 is only 30+ days away. Let's us all work hard and strive for a gold after getting 10 years of silver. We'll make Mr Tan proud, make the school regret looking down on us, let other school bands look up to us. (: Let us all make each other proud once again. (:

2011-02-20T20:28:00.002+08:00

Am I too annoying?
Am I too sensitive?
Am I too selfish?
Am I expecting too much?
Am I easily jealous?
Am I too ambitious?
Am I too stubborn?
Am I too straightforward?
Am I too hyper/crazy to the sense that I'm embarrassing you?
Am I complaining too much?
Am I a backstabber?
Am I too bossy?
Am I bearing grudges?

Is that the reason or are those the reasons why people are pissed with me? Or at least why I offend people?

Or am i simply thinking too much?

I don't want to say sorry anymore. I don't want to make mistakes anymore. Yes, no one is perfect, but wouldn't everyone wants to have mistakes to their minimum? All these crap I've been doing has been making my friends emo. I'm sorry. I'll try not to do it again. I'll try to control myself.

Seeing my friends emo makes me feel hurt. Maybe because I feel useless not able to cheer them up. I know I myself is also emo-ing, but , Dudes! Can all of you start asking your mouths to tilt upwards instead of pulling a sad face?!

The sight of my friends being happy is enough to make me smile. Maybe this is the reason why I keep apologising when someone gives a stern face. Hahas.

I read this quote somewhere. Saying something like "Sometimes, if you apologise, it doesn't mean you are admitting you are in the wrong, but it means you treasure this relationship more than your pride". I agree with this quote. But I've never really felt like this before. Because I'm always the one in fault.

I couldn't bear the thought of my best friends quarelling. What am I going to do? Neither the thought of me quarelling with my best friend (again). What are our friends going to do? Bring stuck in the middle never feels good. Again, I am seldom stuck in the middle because I'm mostly involved in the conflict.

I should start treasuring my friends more. Period.

2011-02-11T20:20:00.002+08:00

"There are big ships and small ships. But the best ship of all is friendship" - Anonymous

Notice all of us are wearing different colours except that there are 2 blacks? xD this is so damn cool. LOL we didnt plan for this. But just so coincidentally, everyone wore different colours of shirts. LOL ok, get to the main point of the post...

Mr Tan offered 2 tubas to me. One is german brand tuba. Second hand costing $2000. BBb and 4 rotary valves. It's now in accent and is reserved for Mr Tan. Another tuba is china brand. CC tuba. First hand costing (maybe) less than $2000.

I don't know if i should get a tuba now. Or if which tuba should i buy. But the price is really attractive. $2000... I may never get such a cheap price for a good tuba. And NAFA needs CC tuba. But if i buy it now, i wont be able to use it except for learning the fingerings. I cant possibly tranpose all my scores...

Through yesterday's instrument talk with mr tan, i realized sec 3 batch has the most numberof enthusiastic band members but it's the batch with the least number of members in the band. This makes me proud. (:

So far, Sec 3 life suck totally. Teachers spam homework like there's no tomorrow... No, im just exaggerating. But if there's a day without homework, I would cheer. xD and tests... god damn it... im experiencing 6 consecutive weekdays of tests. and because of tests and lessons, i've been missing out band practices... haiz... (Yes, this is the main point why i hate sec 3 life)

Wed still have to stay back for physics plotting graph lesson... Have to miss out sectionals again. I dun get it. We have physics during curriculum time too. Why cant Mdm Yeo teach during curriculum hours?!

And looking at out school's new system, i officially announce huayi secondary school completely screwed. 6pm leave school... sit according to index number during assemblies... sec 3 camp 1 or 2 weeks before SYF... at the end of the day, the school will only find disappointment as they already planned so much.

Now, linking back to the picture i posted on top. I love my friends. Yes, i would use love. (: Although they snatch my food everytime and leave only less than 5 piece out of about 20 pieces for me when i bought my food, although they are retarded and a bunch of crazy retard, although we tease and laugh and each other everyday, I still say I love them. (: Thanks Choonhiang, Chiaowen, Qinyan, Samuel, Nicholas. You guys have just made my sec 3 life less hell-ish. I know i do tease and laugh at u all overboard sometimes. im sorry. And i may be unreasonable at times when im pissed or wad. Sorry too. Im just not right in the mind. Thanks guys, you're the best. (:

I think im becoming more mature. (Don't laugh, seriously) I have surprised myself by what i said. LOL It's either sec 3 life or that has made me think of a big picture. Either im becoming more sensible, or i've been possessed. LOL

Once again, let's hope for a tuba junior. Hopefully a girl. xD Hope Mr Tan don't forget that Chuanjie is Sec 4 now and we need to get a new sec 1 to replace him. *Fingers crossed*

2011-02-05T22:21:00.003+08:00

A senior is as important to a junior as a junior is as important to a senior.

It's a damn pity that I only realized this when I'm a pathetic sec 3. Well, this may not be entirely true, but it will be applied to me. I'll try to bond with the sec 2s and the coming sec 1s. I'll try not to get pissed(This gonna be dfficult). I'll be a better senior. (:

the sec 2s and the sec 3s must really bond. i guess it's the distance between the 2 batch that causes some misunderstandings? come on peers, let's forgive and forget. :D i know it's easier said than done. But "If there's a will, there's a way". xD Let's get to know the sec 2s once more. Let's teach them in a different way. Let's discipline them in a different way. :D win-win situation. :D

Yea, it's true that win-win situation is really damn difficult to achieve. But if your junior sees u making effort in bonding and trying to make them play better or whatever, they should have at least a bit of paiseh-ness and pei he u rite? :D or worse come to worst, sympathy la. And as musicians, we only care for results arent we? So if the result is within satisfaction, who cares about the sacrifications? Plus, you have to sacrifice to achieve ur goals rite?

Come on peers, let's all do it for hua yi concert band. stop bearing grudges on your juniors. Let's be bonded. :D

2011-02-04T14:46:00.003+08:00

YO! Happy Chinese New Year peeps!

Malaysia trip was cancelled. WOOTS! xD spending new year in Singapore! :D

Had fun with cousins for the past 2 days. Eve of CNY and 1st day of CNY. watched 2 movies in 2 days. LOL Eve watched Shaolin and watched I love HK yesterday. It's been long since i spent so much time with cousins. hahas.

Didn't collect as much hong bao as previous years. LOL and this year no chocolates! T.T Ah ma's curry also kena kop-ed by people until no more. T.T But had real fun with Liping, Yingxiang, Peilu, Ah qi and Ah xin. :D played monopoy deal, saboteur and san guo sha! Spent about 4 hours explaining and playing these 3 games. LOL

Oh yea! The sakae sushi's yu sheng was DAMN nice! MUCH MUCH nicer than the DAMN nice chicken rice. ROFL! Samuel, Choonhiang, Chiaowen, Qinyan and Nicholas! Let's have sectionals tmr or the day after tmr den have yu sheng as dinner. ROFL!

Miss those times when liping, yingxiang, peilu and me were in primary school. so carefree and full of time. every weekend we'll go ah ma jia to talk and play. hahas. now, we're in sec sch and poly and jc... we're all working hard for our o levels, a levels or diploma. soon, we'll all be working and cant spend time together again. especially when kid's games seem so fun when we play it together. HAHA! Let's watch movies together again some time! :D

I changed my playlist! Choonhiang, you wont hear anymore "VIVA!" when u enter my blog in ur URL browser anymore. LOL i removed the old songs and added new ones. I've set to shuffle so everytime you all visit my blog, it'll be a different song. :D if not everytime come my blog same song very sian rite? xD ok, that's all! :D

2011-02-01T22:03:00.002+08:00

been thinking this last night. I'm sorry im not a good friend. And even sorry i'll not going to be a better friend after i post this. I'm sure my acts or thoughts or words would make every one of u upset. I'm sorry about that. But I'm trying my best to control myself, though i doubt i would succeed.

You said you like band. But everytime there's an extension to the timing, you complain. And this is not the first time you pon practice. How do you convince people u like band then? Being a musician, reponsibility is utmost important. And being in huayi band, respect is equally important. I have nothing else to say... Please reflect on your actions and words.

Been hoping for a girl junior (Yes, choonhiang and samuel, im serious). But CCA list havent come out yet. Praying for a girl tuba junior. xD not because im tiko or wants to flirt as commented by who i call my best friends, but i want the batches that comes in after this girl junior wouldn't think tuba is just for guys. Plus, a girl is easier to control than a guy. xD

Still cracking brain to think of POP gift for chuan jie and sen mian. haiz...

Hope malaysia trip is cancelled. xD i dun want to spend my chinese new year in malaysia~~~ Hope it rains tmr and flood malaysia so train wont be able to pass. den i'll be spending chinese new year in singapore! WOOTS! will go grandma house and meet with liping, yingxiang and peilu! WOOTS! miss my cousins lots. and we'll all be talking about all sorts of things. LOL it will be so damn much better than going to malaysia. There's no one i know there =.=. and i can finish my homework and practice tuba if i dun go over to malaysia! WOOTS! GOD!!! PLEASE LET IT RAIN TOMORROW! AND FLOOD MALAYSIA PLEASE!!! T.T I DUN WANNA GO MALAYSIA~~~

2011-01-30T15:45:00.002+08:00

Should be doing homework now. but oh well. xD

Out of boredom, i questioned myself why do i have such a strong passion for music. and i went on listening to disco party. now i know the answer. music makes me happy. and i want to make people happy. this may sound cliche and such. but really, music is beyond words. there's no way you can describe music. and it has this supernatural power to make you feel so happy, so carefree.

I enjoy making people happy. Seeing them smile and laugh is enough. I dun mind making a fool out of myself just to make my friends' lips tilt upwards. And maybe it's this trait that im afraid my friends, or someone, to be angry at me. So, sorry to friends that i may have offended you due to my not-thinking-before-i-talk. especially choonhiang and qinyan. LOL sorry to have teased you both so much. (though i guess choonhiang would ignore this apology since he know me so well he should know i would continue. xD)

Or maybe it's capricorn's trait to talk before thinking. to be easily jealous(I doubt i would have no troubles getting a girlfriend). to be hurt by words easily. to be the most stubborn out of the 12(or 13?) horoscope. To like to complain (and finds it difficult to keep things to themselves?).

right, back to the topic. Music. Huayi Public Concert is coming up. it's on the 26th of feb from 7 to 9 i guess. tickets at $12 each. concert features choir, hip hop, guzheng, dance society, concert band and student talents(i have no idea what this is). but band is performing at the second half of the concert. repertoire includes disco party(if we can play within 1 month's time), ride, super mario and more. :D do come and support us! :D (though my blog's readers are only samuel, choonhiang, qinyan, amelia and sheryl)

oh right, there's this clarinetist called elizabeth in first toa payoh said huayi band members are guailan. =.= for god's sake, when did we guai lan you? and no, im not afraid to name you in my blog. come and find me if you have a problem with huayi concert band members. =.=

2011-01-28T22:05:00.002+08:00

With the popular demand to post, I've sacrificed my beauty sleep for this post. LOL

Although with the homeworks, stress, tests and everything I experienced in secondary school, I pretty much enjoy it. Not the "School" but the life in a secondary school.

In primary school, we were all still immature and childish. We had no idea how to handle relationships, and friendships are easily broken then. But now that we grew more mature, we know how to handle relationships now. And that doesn't mean we cannot have fun. In poly, JC or university, we will be even more mature. and the "fun" we have now would be deemed as "immature". So secondary school life is the point of time i think we can have the most fun, and at the same time, handle relationships well.

Surely, secondary school gives all of us more stress, more homework, more tests, more subjects blah blah blah. But it will be the period of time i will miss most after i graduate. I know I will never experience such fun and carefree. You can be immature for all you want, what you have is your friends, you can be mature for all you want, and you still end up with your friends.

Any lower than secondary school, you have no goals. any higher than secondary school, you would be busy working towards your goal and miss out tons of fun, stressed by the opinion you cannot achieve what you want and so on. But in secondary school, what you need to do is to study. and what you need to know is your goals. other than that, have fun with your friends!

Thanks Choonhiang, Samuel, Qinyan, Chiaowen, Minghong, Junkai, and Nicholas for making my 1 month of sec 3 life interesting. Will miss you all dearly after graduation (except for nicholas, he already graduated. xD).

2011-01-20T20:30:00.002+08:00

Thanks for people who wished me happy birthday and gave birthday presents! :D really thanks a lot. and sorry for posting it so late. LOL

School... i think getting more and more boring each day. but thanks to band peeps in 3E2, they make me carry on in class. in fact, the only thing i look forward to in school is band and friends.

2011-01-15T16:10:00.002+08:00

Sian sian sian... this weekend so many homework. =.= and dunno why really no mood spend my birthday. so tmr just go bugis with friends to buy clothes ( and maybe cut hair? coz caught by VP =.=)

Sighs... have to finish homework today or will not have time to do tmr. Chinese compo... NO INSPIRATION! TT

Today is NAFA open house. but no one pei me go. D: and i guess nicholas is performing now. good luck nicholas! :D

Speaking about nicholas, i recalled yesterday's MSN conversation. LOL nicholas was calling everyone noobs. Choonhiang was Choon narb, Qinyan was Qin narb, I was Narb Rong(but obviously i should be called Jun Pro or Pro Rong. xD), so i gave nicholas this name: Narb-cholas. ROFL! i know i rock. xD

Yesterday CCA day... some sec 1s were already selected to join band. was quite surprised with the number of pri school players. quite a lot from primary school band or primary school CO. glad they join. :D and nicholas says there a primary school tuba/cornet player. LOL hope it's tuba! :D den this guy can pull hua yi tuba's standard up again. (:

Hope many would join band. And of course, have a junior in lower brass. for both eupho and tuba. this year sec 1 look guai. :D so wouldnt have much trouble ba. LOL

Comments about band yesterday was "loud". LOL i guess that's a good thing? at least we can project our sound to a large area of the school. hahas. and more sec 1 would hear us. furthermore, we played from 3.30 to 6. surely, sec 1s will have deep impression of band. xD we also played super mario and enchanted. which they can be quite familiar. and they seem to be interested in symphonic episode 1 too. :D COME ON SEC ONES! JOIN BAND! XD and especially with these crazy sec 3 senior batch, they are sure to join band. LOLOLOL

Competition is coming up. my ride is not polished up yet. dang... tone is improving very very slowly... wonder if i can make it to competition like that. and i guess im becoming more and more strict towards weizie and yaoren. ok, maybe weizie only. coz he was doing actions that are not supposed to do during band practice. gotta train my loudness too. or else when chuan jie leave, tuba section would sink in band.

ok bye. gotta go back to homework. LOL

2011-01-14T22:25:00.002+08:00

I was talking to Nicholas about NAFA (when I was supposed to be doing my homework XD). Den I really was shaken if I really wants to go NAFA. I mean, yea, Nicholas is encouraging me to go. But well, look at Singapore. Does musicians get a good pay? Does musicians pay more on their educational fees than what they earn?

However, if I give up my musician dream, I really don't know what job I would pursue. Surely, every job has a risk. What if I can't make it being a musician? What will I pursue then? I don't know...

In addition, to get in NAFA, you'd have to pay a yearly school fee of around $5000. and you will have to buy your own instrument. Tuba costs around $8000 for a better ones, but not the best yet. I would prefer YBB 641, the current one I'm using in hua yi, coz i got used to it already. it cost about $7900 now? the price would soon go up to $8000. And there's access course which gives you a higher chance to get into NAFA. which costs about $2000. All these adds up to $15000. I'm not financially prepared.

Ok, Nicholas says that NAFA would lend you the instrument first. So my tuba can wait. $8000 gone temporary. left with... $7000. Ok, I could save up $7000 by the end of sec 4 hopefully. Now I'm financially prepared. But now, my playing skills. I really doubt my playing skills. Even if I have the money to get in NAFA, they still would judge on my playing skills. I know! PRACTICE! that's not a problem. the problem is, we are getting lessons!!! I don't even have a proper warm up now! how can I improve my tone?! And with all the homeworks flooding in, even if I bring my tuba home to practice, I wouldn't have time to practice!

Ok, let's just say everything goes well, I get into NAFA. What am I going to do after I got my bachelor degree from NAFA? Go overseas to get a Master's or Doctorate degree? This, too, requires money. and this time, it costs more. Plus, I wouldn't want to go overseas. My friends and family is here in Singapore! I couldn't bring my family overseas with me, because my sister will still be studying in singapore! she have to finish her education! I can't imagine the boredom and loneliness when I go overseas to study or even work.

Nicholas also suggested joining the SSO as a tuba player, he says it's a career. But an orchestra only needs 1 tuba player. And how many tuba players out there would want to join the SSO? They would of course go through auditions and trials, blah blah blah, and choose the best. It's not that easy.

And I told myself I want to earn much. I want to provide my children with the best. I want to buy them anderson's ice-cream without feeling the pain of losing money. I want to treat my family with restaurant food without feeling to pain of losing money. I dream of living in a condo or terrace house with my wife and kids. And all my kids would play different instruments. So I would have to have the amout of money to buy it, and for maintenance. All of these requires money. Can musicians earn that much in Singapore?

With triple science course, and A maths, i can easily get in to any JC or Poly course and earn a lot when I goes to work. But music is my passion.

Now, I would have to choose between passion, or money.

2011-01-10T18:38:00.002+08:00

To the person who is posting advertisements on my tagboard, I know u are the same person. Changing your nickname on my tagboard doesn't help. Please stop posting advertisements on my tagboard, as it is getting flooded with your tag and it is getting irritating. Yes, I'm saying it's irritating because I asked u to stop but u didnt. =.= so thanks very much to stop posting those things on my tagboard.

Back to a normal post. Ok, it's not really normal. Coz im gonna scold.

I'm already 15. Please respect my decisions, actions and thoughts. I believe you took care of me for the past 15 years is not because you want to make decisions and make me do it for the rest of my life rite? if that's it, you might as well get a puppet instead. Puppets dun even rebel. But i do. I know clearly that i have school the next day. And i WILL reach home. Stop guai lan-ing me when im not back at 7 or 8. As i said, im 15 this year. I know how to take care of myself. Eating dinner and chatting with friends, watching concerts, etc, all these dun end early. You were once a teenager, why cant u understand?! And no, I dun think my room is in a mess. At least those parts that belongs to me is not in a mess. So stop clearing or tounching my things. I would appreciate real lot. I wouldnt like it either if my things gone missing and i have to ask u and u would say "It's your things wad! You are the one responsible for keeping it! When you need it, you keep it, when you don't you throw it around, this always happens!" Yes, you have been saying this for the past 10+ years and I would normally just ignore you half way through the "speech" everytime. I would also appreciate it if you don't "help" me keep my money. I'm saving up for my tuba, access course. Just this 2 costs about $10,000. and I have to get it by the end of next year. there's still NAFA school fees, which costs $5000 each year. Here I am trying so much to save up the money I get from you two. But you just keep taking and taking my leftover money in my wallet and put it in your own wallet. You know clearly both of us wouldn't like it when I come looking for you to pay my school fees. But still, you take my money. Next, early thanks for not guai lan-ing me anymore. No, I have to rebel that I'm not the one who started the guai lan thing. It's you. Who starts guai lan one?! U guai lan me i also dun like right? den i talk back 1 sentence you KAO PEI KAO BU me. And just a warning if you still don't know your son well after he'd been spending 15 years with you, I'll reply guai lan answer to guai lan question. =.= and no, the calculator was bought from school. it's compulsory. we ARE supposed to use in school. =.= and thanks for teaching me to walk off when your child havent even explain to you. =.= now, you're complaining about your hard life... and yet, in your complain, u complain that u've NEVER complain while doing work. zzz... Yes yes yes, i've never been studying or doing homework. When i was reading my textbook in front of you, you were just blind right? Plus, it's dad who gives me money everytime i go out, not you, bitch. And when dad doesn't give, i'll take from my savings. yes, from my supposedly-used-for my tuba and access course money. But i'll have to thank you one thing. If it's not all your scoldings and naggings and complainings and kao-pei-kao-bu-ing to me since young, I wouldn't be such a patient guy now. So yea, that's one advantage out of millions of disadvantage to me. And... oh, about the complain when me and sis grows up and still wants to take in you and dad, well, actually i was really planning to live with you and dad, when after what you said just now, no thanks. I'll live happily with my wife and children and maybe dad. But definitely not you. You have NEVER give me any nice memories since young. What you're giving me is scoldings, naggings, kao-bei-kao-bu-ing and signs of no love. Really, I really admire my friends who have a warm family. They're close to their parents and siblings and have such a strong relationship between them. In my family, it's all coldness and maybe with hate. This may be one of the reason why I'm not coming home early. Because I hate this kind of family. I hate being at home with this kind of feeling. I'd rather be with my friends rather than at home...

2011-01-06T20:38:00.003+08:00

Just yesterday, i made some comments about myself. and today, the whole day, whole sec 3 express classes went for this "super-teen" course that talks about being successful in life, self esteem and how to study for exam. and out of this 3, i think the talk about self esteem benifitted me the most. (:

"Life's not fair. If you think life is fair, you are crazy. So, life's not fair. But so what? Life's not fair, so you have to make your life fair for yourself." This is what the speaker, Mr Peter Lau said. and it really inspired me. He meant either you accept your life, or you change your life. For things unchangeable, accept it. For things that can be changed, change it for the better.

He went on telling us about this guy having pimples. This guy's mother sent this guy to super-teen camp. but warned the speakers not to say about her son's bad pimples. however, when mr peter saw this guy, he forgot whatthe mother said because this student's pimples was so bad. so he went on saying "WA! your face pimple plantation ar?!" and the whole class laughed. and of course, the guy was mad and wanted to challenge peter, but, he controlled himself. for the next 3 days of the camp, campers teased him about the "pimple plantation". Finally on the third day, in the middle of the class, he broke down suddenly. he shouted "SO WHAT?! HAVE PIMPLE SO WHAT?!" I can really imagine the anger and disapointment he had in himself. Mr Ernest came and said "Yeah, have pimple so what?" and he added on "Class, can u accept him for having pimples?" and the class said "yes". Mr Ernest said "The whole class accepts u. The only one who dun accept u, is urself".

This story really really inspired me. bad skills in tuba, so what? bad skills in tuba, so i have to practice more. juniors might be better than me, so what? juniors might be better than me, so i have to practice more. other people seems to learn faster and easier than me, so what? so i hve to practice even harder or practice another way im practicing now, but since i cant find another way, i'll just practice harder.

Super-teen called the campers back in another 6 month's time. and this guy, his face was a whole lot better now. and mr peter went to him and say "Wa, your face better ar!" and this guy, again, says with his anger "BECAUSE OF YOU ALL LA! SAY WHAT PIMPLE PLANTATION, WHAT ACCEPT MYSELF" something like that.

Mr Peter and Mr Ernest also says that Self esteem is being lovable and have capability. Lovable, not people loving or liking you, but are you able to love? and the first person you have to love is yourself. they carried explaining what's love. in simple form, love is the accept the person. you have to accept yourself for who u are! ur looks, ur weakness, ur strengths, etc. and capability, u have to be confident. well, i think both factors are very closely linked together. so if u have one, u probably have the other.

Another thing i learnt from this course is to set goals and believe i can achieve it. this definitely requires a higher value of self esteem as u can see "Believe i can achive it" up there. now, to list my goals in order:

To improve my tuba tone and rhythm (well, tone first, definitely) before SYF'11
To be a good senior after SYF, both playing abilities and attitude
To score 8 A1s for O levels (Mr Ernest kept stressing this LOL)
Practice, Practice, Practice for audition for NAFA access course and NAFA
Earn or save up $$$ to buy a tuba and enter NAFA access course
Study well in NAFA
Learn either composing or conducting in NAFA or other music schools
Work in the music industry and be outstanding
Be Singapore's top tuba player
Be the world's top tuba player (I dunno if im day dreaming, but since it's in my "Goal list" I'll continue day dreaming xD)
Help Singapore get it's music standard up
Spread the awareness of music to the world (or at least Singapore)

Since i talked about day dreaming, Mr Peter also said Mr Ernest once told him to beware of people who day dream. Because one day, their dreams might come true.

Yes, I'll work hard for both my tuba skills and studies now. And i'll achieve those goals one by one.

2011-01-05T20:22:00.003+08:00

2nd day of school. Lessons started. Physics teacher Mdm yeo was nice. :D chem teacher Ms Chiang is also nice! LOL science will so be my favourite subjects this 2 years. xD still waiting for bio teacher. hope it's some interactive and fun teacher. but mdm yeo said it's most probably mr lim. let's check him out on fri. XD

was late for band with the entire sec 3 express band mates. lessons until 3 when band started at 2.30. haiz... chuanjie and min sein laughed, again, at my long pants. *...*

After band went to eat dinner with chiaowen and qinyan. chiaowen was doing random and epic things as usual. XD qinyan was... laughing at chiaowen with me. LOL left teh tarik at 7.30.

guess i have to apologise to choonhiang. LOL for his latest blog post. and since he sits beside me in class and in front of me in band(new sitting arrangement), he's the one who hears my complaints the most. after all, capricornians stands out at complaining and being stubborn. xD so, sorry choonhiang! this gonna continue until we graduate. LOL

finally, i realized. it's no that i hate you. it's the personality and character we share that i hate.
Both of us are:

Rude
Too ambitious
Attention seekers
Lousy temper control
hates being a loser
pride - even when we lose, we'll still find excuses and say we win the other party in one way or another
loves to criticize
gets jealous easily especially when we tried so hard to get something but still cant get it and someone just comes by and gets it without effort
hates people for pointing out our mistakes because we think we are so good.
guai lan especially to things we oppose

Yes, it's not that i hate you. Whenever i see u, it's like seeing myself in reality. not the appearance, but the behavior. I dun hate you... the person i hate is myself.

Yeap, who am i kidding?! ur tone is really better than mine. but i find every single way to counter this sentence. ur learning pace is faster than mine. and i "forgot" my learning pace when i was ur age. I'm no better than u, scolding seniors assholes, idiots and everything when i was a junior back then.

now, what do i have the rights to hate you... when we are both the same...

2011-01-04T18:24:00.002+08:00

Face the facts...
And get over it

First day of school... is so fucking screwed. =.=

Only see our EL/hist/form teacher, mr shoon, Maths teacher, mdm lye and chinese teacher mdm tan. all was pretty good. at least they're guai lan teachers. p/s mr shoon is very lame. LOL

Classmates... sigh. was pretty glad to be with same class with band members. but 2E2'10... choonhiang, chiaowen and qinyan complained to me abt 2E2'10. LOL say damn guailan la... damn irritating la... but oh well. im used to this already.

Class commitee is also screwed. Vernon as CEO... i can tell he's really bu shuang. LOL and who in the right mind would choose vernon?! i mean... look at him! he's small sized, look like he will get bullied anytime, does he even know how to lead the class? no offence though. and no, i do not want to be CEO either. haiz... 3E2'11 is so screwed with a whole lot bunch of classmates...

Qinyan, Chiaowen, Choonhiang, Minghong all got a post in class commitee liao. Qinyan as CL rep, Chiaowen as Events manager, Choonhiang as OM, Minghong as Maths rep. im the only one without any posts. LOL and minghong plans to sabo me. if he's going to sabo me to being subj rep, im fine. but the teacher better not be guailan. LOL

Excited for bio lessons. yea, thats the only lesson im looking forward to. LOL and maybe chem. bio teacher better not be guailan. XD hope Mrs E or Mrs Wee(are they the same person?! LOL) come and teach our class. but haiz, with 2E2'10... can teach untill everyone is interested meh? some certain gang would be guailan-ing the teacher about sexual reproduction topic =.=

Assembly... this is the time i can chop at any papers that says "Huayi Secondary School is screwed". come on teachers... who are u kiddng?! sitting arrangement for assembly?! sitting according to our index number?! i hope u arent treating urself as 3 year old kids. LOL coz im pretty sure a whole lot of us would be ignoring that rule. and the 6pm bell thing?! 2 words. FUCK YOU! the last SYF, HYCB practiced until 7pm but still got a silver. now u are closing the school at 6?! and if we dun get a gold back, u are blaming us for being noobs. seriously man, what happened to people who work for MOE?! all got head concussion during the holidays?! =.= oh, and the discipline talk by DM, Mr Razak, im so not going to follow. HAHAHHA! come and tell me to mind my language. =.= What logic is this?! u can scold students idiots because it is found in the dictionary?! hey, fuck is also found in dictionary. can we throw "fuck u" at u when u kb us? =.= huayi is so screwed...

After school went to eat lunch at macdonald's with samuel, choonhiang, minghong, chiaowen and qinyan. thanks guys! really appreciate the thought of hanging out as a sec 3 express band gang. hahas. really love it. really. (:

joked, ate, teased, emo-ed(?), talked, left at 3. walked the same way and went to grandma house while the rest of them go home.

chatted with grandma and slept for one hour. came back home at 5.30. end of day~

2011-01-03T14:02:00.003+08:00

Yep, it's a brand new start of a new school year tmr. New class, new subj, new friends, new sitting arrangement, new teachers. haha. was classed with all band members except for samuel. XD Me, Choonhiang, Chiaowen, Qinyan, Lois, Vivian, Minghong... 7 band members in 3E2. WOOTS! we're so going to piss our teachers off with our passion for band. xD lets all pon any activities that stay us back and miss band. :P

It'll be cool to have all 8 of our batch's band members hanging out as a clique. LOL hope the 7 of us would sit together in class tmr. xD and i dun think mr shoon would change our seats. so yea! we get to stay at our seats. :P

sectional is cancelled tmr. (dang) and new sec 1's would be coming in. hope they have nice attitude and not rude. and i'll be sec 3 this year! LOL long pants! xD and more senior this year! time to boss people around. LOL jk.

I actually wants school to start faster. I miss my friends. but i definitely doesnt want lesson and school activities to start. just friends and band. :D

oh yea, my class got all the good teachers! :D mrs selina wong, best SS teacher. Ms chiang, best chem teacher. Mdm yeo, best physics teacher. Mdm Lye, one of the good maths teacher. Mr shoon, not bad hist and eng teacher. oh wait, they say mrs heng is not a good geog teacher. so yea, just 1 bad teacher. LOL dunno my bio and chinese teacher yet. hope they're good. :D

and i think all band members take geog instead of hist. T.T I'm so left out... but well, i have 2E2'10 to accompany me. :P

2011-01-01T11:52:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE! :D

Sorry for not replying all your new year messages, but i really do appreciate it. thanks so much! :D and the reason why i didnt reply, my msg is limited. sorry! now, waiting for december, so i can change to unlimited msg. :D

posted to 3E2 with 2E2'10 and band people. :D all express band mates are in 3E2 except samuel. LOL now he's so despo to change class. Hope 3E2 will be a pleasant class with pleasant teachers(So not gonna happen. Teachers aren't pleasant at all).

Chiaowen, Nicholas, Qinyan and Vivian came my house to countdown/celebrate/slack after we finished our sectionals and our dinner together. :) bullied qinyan like siao. LOL Samuel came at 11+. Did some retarded funny video after having the inspiration when watching youtube. xD tried to send a msg to Channel 8 but was too late. msg was not displayed on tv and my $1 is cheated. T.T

Wishes for 2011:

Better playing Tuba skills
HYCB to get gold for SYF
Have higher self confidence
Improve in studies
Save more money to get a tuba :P
Friends to stay together and to stay happy :D
Sec 3'10 and Sec 4'10 HYCB members to come back often. XD
To control temper better.
To love instead of hate.
To change for the better.
Be a better junior to chuanjie for the last 6 months
Be a better senior to juniors
Have a tuba junior!! :D or at least a lower brass member. :D

That's all. XD

2010-12-30T21:10:00.003+08:00

yes, i should really believe in myself now. believe that i can play my tuba nicely. yes, it's time that i play my tuba nicely now. why am i still giving suckish tone?!

Ever since the day i joined tuba section, i dun think i've helped out chuan jie at all. I think all i gave him was troubles and burden. like seriously, mistakes and attitude wise? damn! He should have punished or scolded me a lot of times but he didnt. now, im still making shitty mistakes. why can't i just play the songs nicely, perfectly?! god damn it. chuan jie is holding up tuba section alone and me, as a senior, is not helping, instead, gives trouble. WTF IS THIS?!

Playing skills, attitude, behaviour, confidence, can i really be the most senior member of lower brass section? much less an SL. Am i really able to lead? Do i really have the qualification?

I really want lower brass section to excel. with or without seniors. next year, im going to be a damn sec 3, with all remedials flooding in. and god damn it! y in the world did i choose triple science?! ok, so next year, im going to be sec 3, with more remedials because im in triple science. and chuan jie and senmian will be sec fours, with more remedials than they have in sec 3 because they are revising for their Os. Will Weizie, Yaoren, Yikai and Nadhirah feel insecure when the seniors are not here? Will they break down in the middle of the song? Will they even skip practices just because the seniors are not here?

Even me, im not even confident with what i play when chuan jie's not around sometimes. and my tone is not getting better (FUCK). my sight reading is still like shit. my rhythm is not as good. ok, at this point of time, i guess i should really let my musician dream die off.

Yes, im not believing in myself now. and i know i should be believing. because if i dun believe in myself, how would my section believe me as a senior? How would they even believe themselves if i, myself dun believe in myself?!

Now, what i can do, or what we can do, is to practice, and believe in ourselves. have confidence and keep on playing. until one day, we really excel in our instruments. All the best. (:

No, im not going to show my emo side to my friends again. They have no reason to worry for me. Im going to be independent and solve my own problems. My friends have their own problems too. They dun have the time to help. and afterall, 1 person being sad is better than 2 person being sad. So from tomorrow on, everyone will only know the Junrong that laughs crazily, non stop, until he hugs his stomach in pain and gasp for air. The Junrong that is carefree, nothing to emo about.

2010-12-29T20:49:00.002+08:00

excited for tmr! mayflower people coming huayi and we are taking section photos! *hint hint* xD

and there's POP next year. NOOOOOOO! I dun want this year sec 3's to leave! T.T AWESOME SENIORS! was sec 4's not sec 3's?! DAMN! Why are awesome seniors leaving?! come back often yea? Band will miss you.

AND AND AND! Tuba concerto is nice! LOL used to fall asleep while listening, but now concentrating listening to it, it's nice! and i finally realize the beauty of tuba. IT SOUND SO FREAKING NICE! but why cant i play like that... haiz. anyway, though it's the bass and it's big and it's heavy, it's a damn bloody shitass awesome instrument! :D

today marks the start of S1OC. though it was a bit noisy and crazy(I cant believe i did that last year too), i hope all facs and campers enjoy it. (: But most importantly, JOIN BAND AND COME TO TUBA/LOWER BRASS! :DD

i swear i will treat next year's junior better if they are not guai lan or wadever shit. I'm gonna be a good senior! LOL! *everybody gasp* ...

2010-12-26T13:04:00.002+08:00

*THIS POST HAS NO OFFENCE TO MELODY PLAYERS EG. TRUMPETS, CLARINETS, ETC*

Fed up with people saying bass players or bass instruments is useless. =.= or they dun sound nice etc... Please la people, you guys are not even in the music industry and have no knowledge about music who are u to judge the bassists?!

Bass: Tubas, Bassoons, Bass Clarinets, Baritone Saxophone, sometimes Euphoniums and Trombones. We provide the skeletal of the whole music. Yes, people hear the melody, but music without bass? It's like... Human without skeletons?

We, like the high pitch instruments, can play soloes. Yes, we can. And yes, we play it nice. It's up to u to decide if it's nice to you or not. You dun say it's not nice by general.

Although the bass is important, melodious instruments are important as well. Yes, they can play the bass part at times. Vice versa, bass instruments can play the melody too.

Another thing, People, STOP staring at musicians who carry big and heavy instrument bags on their back, eg, tuba bag. =.= Hey, what's wrong with carrying the tuba? Stop glaring or starring. Either you have never seen a tuba before, or you are just stupid. =.= Don't you know it's rude to stare?! Go on, stare more. I'll just glare back. Or should I be guai lan and say "Yea, It's the tuba. oh wait, do u know what is a tuba since u keep starring at it and think wad it is? (:" XD

2010-12-25T09:14:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!

Sorry for not posting after the band camp. Not going to type all about band camp. We practiced, marched and played. (:

Performed at takashimaya last night. Was a success. Mr Tan said some one from "Jupiter" came to watch and was happy with our performance. :D She said if Huayi ever wants to go Taiwan, can contact her company anytime. MUAHHAHAHA! NO MORE MALAYSIA! xD

Mr Ho and a lot of other conductors were there. But they didnt come to watch us. They came to watch the primary school performing after us. hahas. but they were also surprised by our performance. :D El bimbo, Sleigh Ride, Enchanted, Fireside Christmas and Super Mario. :D

YAY! HUA YI BAND IS RECOGNISED NOW! ^^

Let's all do well in our marching and SYF now and get a gold. :D Huayi band will then be famous in the band industry in Singapore. :D

2010-12-19T19:53:00.002+08:00

Last post before I'm off for 3D2N band camp starting tmr. Not bringing my phone. So dun expect a reply from me. (:

Wondering if i should bring my homework there and complete it in the camp. LOL

Finally got to practice with huayi band again! :D excited for camp. hahas. Gonna see familiar faces. :P

Sore eye is not recovering. So im gonna bring it to camp. LOL camp also no eye drop, so i think it's going to get worse when i come back.

Come back from camp will eat tang yuan! :D

2010-12-15T22:31:00.002+08:00

YES! PEOPLE! SMILE! LAUGH! BE HAPPY! STOP EMO-ING! pft

People are emoing these days... qinyan, choonhiang, i think samuel also? gah...

have been trying to improve tone since dunno when. but it's still suckish as ever. and to make things worse, nicholas and qinyan said tone is very difficult to change. takes about 6 to 12 months. I DON'T HAVE THAT MUCH TIME! ONLY 4 MONTHS LEFT TO SYF! haiz... what have i been doing last year?! should have perfect-ed my tone and everything. 1 year wasted like that...

what if my suckish tone dragged the band down to silver? when everyone put in so much effort in ride? and it'll all go down the drain just because of my tone?! and my sight reading. ok nvm that. it'll come later. but TONE!!! GAH

ok, shall end my post here. stay happy people! (:

2010-12-14T17:02:00.002+08:00

"The difference between a successful person and others is not a lack of strength. Not a lack of knowledge. But rather is a lack of will"

YES! I perservered and completed 2 out of 4 of my homework! xD English and history. :D chinese requires chinese newspaper and (1) i'm lazy to read chinese words, (2) there isnt any interesting news there (or is it i cant read too many words that's why i think it's not interesting? oh well..) I think choon hiang will strangle me when he sees this. LOL and give me plenty of chinese tuition. :P

Sorry for not posting for the past few days. though i dun have many readers too. LOL life is rather dull... band, concert, eat, sleep, computer, homework. yea. I think Hema scolded me for having no life when i told her this. LOL

But hey... SYF is coming up. isn't it normal to practice harder? And everyone is pressuring us to get a gold. How can we get gold without practicing hard?

But come to think of it, am i really neglecting myself? Band band band band... Concert concert concert concert... Hey, where's my movies and enjoying with friends? and everyone is resting for this 2 weeks while me and some other band mates go all the way to ang mo kio just to practice. When we can use all these time to hang out with friends and enjoy our lives.

Oh well... actually i dun care. there's plenty of time to enjoy after SYF. and i really am enjoying myself in band. :D

However, this 2 weeks break is making me miss huayi concert band. yes, i know, it's just 1 week plus. practicing in mayflower feels different. maybe i know people in huayi band but not in mayflower band. i get this sense of belonging in huayi band. i do enjoy sectional in mayflower band though. although it's only once. LOL

Yes, i miss everyone (practically) in huayi band. those that makes me laugh, those that makes me feel assured, those that piss me off, those that plays in hua yi band. Guess i'll really enjoy band camp when all of us goes back. (:

And after band camp, it's the christmas performance. hope can gather the whole tuba section or whole lower brass section to take a picture with our santa's hat or reindeer's horn. XD

sadly, there wont be practice after the christmas concert. and i've been thinking how the hell am i supposed to bring my tuba to sch on the first band practice next year. with new classmates in class with my tuba? they'd think i enter the wrong sch. i should be in some mental hospital instead. oh well, hope there's performance during the orientation camp so i can leave my tuba in sch. (:

2010-12-07T18:02:00.002+08:00

"Music expresses that which cannot be said and on which it is impossible to be silent."
~Victor Hugo (1802 - 1885)

One thing I don't understand: Why do singers and actors earn more than musicians.

Let's compare.
Singers - sing
Actors - act
Musicians - make music through years of practice.

You go out to the streets and grab any random people to sing, act and play a musical instrument. Most people can do the first 2. And they would use their "common sense" method. They puff their cheeks and BLOW air into the horn. While the actual method is to bite for woodwind and buzz for brasswind. Playing a musical instrument comes with practice. No one can play it immediately. Singing and Acting is the direct opposite.

Musicians also have to worry about a lot of things. Example, their tone, their tuning, their rhythm, they loudness, their skills(running notes, double tonguing etc), and money. Why money? They have to buy their own instruments while singer's voice comes free and actor's acting comes free too.

(most) Singers, unlike chorals, do not know how to read musical notes. And they obviously wouln't know italian, french or german terms for music. How they sing? A pianist would play their part and they would add in the lyrics. Some don't even know what the heck is tuning. They would just rely on the recording machine to make them sound nice for their CD. But live performance? Either they make a fool out of themselves, or they lip sync.

Actors, on the other hand, only memorise their god damn script. And cry when necessary. This, too, needs practice. But it won't take as long as YEARS to practice.

And I conclude, singers and actors make money through their face. NOT their talent. Even if you act really poorly, or sing very poorly, you still get a good pay if your face isn't disfigured. And yea, for those who hate certain celebs, go ahead and destroy their face. Sit back and enjoy to see how they earn money from the media world.

Musicians, definitely do not need or care about their appearance. They earn money through their skills. And their skills are obtained through years of practice, unlike singers and actors. You would probably see ALOT of fat, bald, albert-einstein-hair or geeky musicians. But you would not use these terms on celebs. Because, celebs use their appearance to earn, while musicians use their skills to earn. Nobody would care about the musician's appearance! However, like I said, even if you act poorly or sing badly, you still earn a great deal of money if you are a singer or actor.

Musicians put in so much effort. Practice for years. Sacrificed so much. Yet, they earn so less?! or rather, in singapore? Why do singers and actors earn more than musicians? I don't see a point. Musicians should really get more well-paid than singers and actors.

2010-12-06T22:09:00.003+08:00

Went to mayflower today to have practice. took taxi and it cost $32+ LOL wth right?! me, chiaowen and nicholas shared costs. so yea, one red note of mine and chiao wen flew away coz of my god damn heavy tuba. MRT and bus seemed too risky of me, so yea. LOL

i'll skip the whole practice since im not really in the mood to post. LOL

lunch break... went to nearby coffee shop to eat. THE CHICKEN RICE IS DAMN NICE! IT COSTS $2 ONLY. and it's very little la. BUT IT'S DAMN NICE. i ate 2 plates. LOL! coz i was hungry and it was nice. :P

ok, went back for sectionals. joined their lower brass section for sectionals. Amelia conducted. If there's one thing i learnt from this trip, it is how to conduct sectionals. Chuanjie's way and Amelia's way of conducting is totally, completely different. I actually needed some time to get used to it. I've learnt for Amelia that I really need to stand firm on what I say. And really, discipline. LOL She is so much more strict than Chuanjie.

Amelia got despo after a while. So i offered my help to coach tuba juniors and amelia would take eupho. Tim Lin, one sec one tuba player from mayflower, writes down wadever mr tan said, and wadever i said. LOL i was really impressed. Amelia did write down too. Mayflower band is really hardworking, or at least their tuba players. This is wad i really have to learn. LOL All their scores are full with pencil markings and highlighter ink... and when i said something like "this place need crescendo", "this place need to play short", they really really write it down.

Blah blah blah... Sectionals ending, went back band room to pack, put my tuba in their band store room. (i miss my tuba. T.T)

Went to clarinet outing. LOL at vivo. with nicholas and chiao wen. LOL played a few rounds of murderer and mafia. ate with nicholas and chiao wen. MRT-ed and Bus-ed back home.

1 day gone~

ok, i dun care if i get slashed or wad liao. I'm just going for my band practices and exercises. no one's stopping me. please, i'm already 14. i can take care of myself. stop trapping me in four walls. I want to practice. Yes, ang mo kio, mayflower sec, so what?! gah... why are you always so overprotective?! The slashing incidence has stopped for about one month! stop worrying! I'm going fr my band practices AND concerts AND exercises. The people who slashed probably got caught and ran away. And u dun see the WHOLE of the area getting slashed! I will take care of myself. and i can. Stop nagging and stopping me from doing what i like. u know i hate that. period.

2010-12-05T19:01:00.002+08:00

"Friends add happiness and subtract misery, by the multiplying of our joy and the dividing of our grief."

Ok, first, Samuel said I was carefree. Then, Hema said I was carefree. Now, even Choonhiang says I'm carefree! LOL! Am I really that carefree?! And all of them used "carefree" the exact same word. None of the used "nothing to be emo about" or "so relieved of stress", no, all 3 of my best friends used "carefree". LOL

So, let's analyse how "carefree" I am. Things to worry about:

Studies
Friendship
Love-ship
Family
CCA
Career
Others

And the results...

Studies - School's over and EOY results was satisfying so NO
Friendship - NO
Love-ship - No lover or admirer so NO
Family - NO
CCA - A bit?
Career - No career so NO
Others - A bit? O.O

Ok, I really am carefree. CCA and "Others" add up is nothing compared to what the 3 are/were emo-ing.

But hey, life wouldn't be meaningful if you live through it without emo-ing and obstacles. Occasional obstacles are welcome. :P (I know I sound like an idiot saying this)

Hey, Samuel, Choonhiang and Hema, dun emo urself hor. (although i know choonhiang will) anything must tell me. :D although i dunno how to comfort you all la, but i'll always be here when u 3 need me. :D (Now praise me for being sweet. xD)

Went running with Choonhiang, Xinying and Kaili today to improve stamina for band. :P Choonhiang played basketball, so me, xinying and kaili go run first. We ran around huayi. Ran 3 rounds, xinying and kaili could not be seen behind me. LOL so i went back find choonhiang. talked with him while waiting for xinying and kaili. Did a little push ups, and they came back ler.

Choonhiang asked if i want to run again with him, so we ran around hua yi again. Was talking and running with him at the same time. half way through 2nd round my stomach ache. So choonhiang continued the last round himself.

Waited for choonhiang to be back. Bought chips to eat coz hungry. LOL Choonhiang went back playing basketball. eating chips alone while kaili and xinying was talking. Choonhiang came back, den we talked. Xinying came and ask if we wanted to share cost for minhui's present. I paid $4 and Choonhiang paid $2. LOL den the 3 of us talked abit. Den xinying went back to kaili and went to JP to buy present for minhui.

Me and Choonhiang stayed and talked. I gave him my leftover chips coz i think it isn't nice. LOL! and he thought it was nice. O.O talked alot. but didnt complain anything. hahas. Capricornians tend to complain alot. :P Choonhiang kind of lectured me about being filial. :P

Choonhiang finished the chips and he was going home. I walked with him since i've got nothing to do at home. He was still lecturing me about being filial. LOL and also talked about other things with him.

Walked him to his home. Den went home alone. :D

2010-12-03T18:07:00.002+08:00

I hope Minghong is feeling alright now...

Band-ed in the morning. Was still emo-ing since last night. So, reach canteen liao just sat there and emo. Choonhiang caught flu, so he wasnt talking much too. Samuel... well, he was busy. LOL

Normal practice. Tried to play loud and nice tone today. Loud, i think ok but my tone was still suckish as usual. And mr tan kept complaining tuba was too loud, resulting in slowing down, so i think i'll put my tone as priority now.

Asked mr tan whether we can join mayflower for practice for the next 2 weeks after practice and he agreed. :D woots! no boring individual practice! xD

Lunched with minghong, samuel, choon hiang.

Went back for marching. Marched 1 round in the quadrangle, den go to basketball court to have another round, back to quadrangle for another round.

Minghong fainted after the last round. Like really fainted. But he come to senses after a few seconds. Then, faint again. He scratched his knee and elbows because of the rough texture of the quadrangle floor. Majors carried him to the bench. He looked damn pale. But he still had the usual smile on his face.

Majors released us for break and instructed us to drink water. We were released after the break.

Packed tuba into light weight case and carried minghong's bag to general office with samuel. Stayed there with Ms Chia, Chuanjie and Minsein. Ms Chia was complaining why our batch keep giving her shock. First was me vomitting, now it's minghong fainting. LOL den she asked samuel when he will be giving her the third shock so as to give her mental preparation. xD

The 5 of us joked in the general office, including minghong. LOL! untill minghong's father came and picked him up, we left. went back home put instruments with choonhiang and samuel. Went teh tarik for dinner with Samuel, Choonhiang, Chuanjie, Genevieve, Minhui, Qinyan and Chiaowen.

went back home. (:

Samuel is going Macau tonight. BYEBYE~! Have fun and dun forget to buy souvinirs for us! LOL

2010-12-02T19:33:00.004+08:00

had sectional in the morning with choon hiang and clarinet section. LOL! me and choon hiang was extra-ing. but went outside to practice ourselves later. choon hiang helped to improve my tone. and i think it was quite a success? LOL could somehow hit the right tone but cant really sustain it. and when it comes to playing songs, i go back to my suckish tone again. oh yeah, played tanglewood with him which was a total fail for me. LOL fingering fail, timing fail. gah...

went to samuel's house with choonhiang, genevieve, qinyan and min hui in the afternoon. had damn lots of fun there. LOL epic twister and Wii. xD The teddy bear i love made me sneeze again. LOL left at 6+.

took bus 187 with choonhiang, qinyan, genevieve and min hui. i think we made damn lots of noise though no one complained. LOL we were talking about gossips and people we dislike. :P and problems faced during sectionals. laughed, joked and scolded. LOL

alighted at backgate of huayi with choon hiang. went back home. (:

To Juniors (whom it may concern):
Being close with seniors doesn't mean u can be rude to them anytime. (: Example, scolding them assholes (or schronzo), idiot or wadeva. Being close to seniors (or friends) means u can share what you want with them and pour your feelings to them, share the darkest secret with them, joke with them, laugh with them, tease them, etc. being close does NOT equals to scolding. and if u meant to joke, please do it outside band, and/or make your joking accent really obvious. (:

I think choonhiang is right, i can never finish writing a compo about u. Bad things of course. I cant think of anything good abt u anyway. But really, i'll try. I try not to hate you. after all, we are still going to spend another year together.

I know people are getting pissed by my sensitiveness. I get hurt by words easily. I myself hate it too. but wad can i do? it's my personality. im born like that. and i cant say im trying my best to change it, coz i ain't. sorry to those whom i pissed. really sorry. Even being so sensitive, i still dont watch out my words. I still shoot out asshole, idiot, etc... to my friends. i know im being a real bastard here. im really sorry. sincerely. but i think having to apologise most is to chuanjie. i even scolded him asshole infront of juniors. i really deserved being pumped but he didnt. this senior of mine is really... i dunno? not right in brain? anyway, wad i meant was i dun usually mean wad i say when i say nasty things. really. usually, i regret saying it the moment it came out of my mouth. yes, apologizing doesnt cure anything. i should change. i know. i'll try. i promise. but pls do bear with me during this period of time. i really dun want to lose any of my friends because of my suckish personality.

2010-12-01T17:45:00.002+08:00

Marching today was.. not really good. LOL! first time marching with instrument. and wad's my instrument? TUBA! yes, the big, macho, instrument. and it dun come light.

tuba players were given a sash to help them carry their instrument with greater ease. unfortunately, my sash was new but lousy. cannot adjust one! LOL so i had to hold my tuba like i have no sash. near the end of the marching session, my hand was so tired that i hunched my back and march. I didnt have the strength to hold my tuba to the desired height.

And to make things worse, my brain could not remember march together. so i made countless mistakes today. bravo to me!

(my muscles still ache from carrying tuba. TT)

me, choon hiang and samuel was complaining how tiring the marching was and complaining which of our instrument gave us the most trouble (of course mine la! LOL) after marching. went for lunch. but i didnt had appetite. felt like sleeping. LOL ate bread anyway.

mayflower people came while we were going back to band room. warmed up, mr tan came, practiced, amelia and shimin came, practiced, practice end.

went to teh tarik with samuel, choon hiang and ming hong. ate, joked, drank, stole(?) LOL! stole qinyan and chiao wen's french fries. :P Samuel and choon hiang was discussing how to steal their fries, den i just stood up, go to their table and said "hi" den just take one fries. LOL! chiao wen was hitting my hand. HAHAHA. of course, we bought our own fries and pay them back wad we took. :P

bought drink. samuel bought mr teh tarik dinosaur which choonhiang described as "shit". LOL den samuel was also eating like he was eating shit. =X really no table manners. LOL den choon hiang planned to take a photo of his unglam, but too late. so he just took the "shit" samuel bought. den out of randomness, samuel said "this is how i play my instrument" den he bite his straw and blow. his drink bubbled violently. LOL

den samuel's father was coming to fetch him, so we go back sch. ming hong left mysteriosly. LOL den the three of us was saying how fast he can say something and den disappear fast. i tried. i said "choon hiang, u suck" den faster went to hide but fail. LOL we were walking through buildings that time. so a lot of walls.

Samuel randomly said "jun rong, u suck" den move to the left of the wall, i was moving right of the wall. but surprisingly, both of us moved back the same time and we laughed at our epic ness. LOL

samuel was walking up to the dustbin. he pushed his drink into the mouth of the bin but it rebounded. LOL den samuel epicly tried to save it and push it back to the bin again. xD

just outside the sch, samuel was walking behind a not-so-very-thin guy. den samuel was imitating how the guy infront of him walks. LOL! damn mean la! xD but me and choon hiang laughed. :P

so... samuel went home. den me and choon hiang went home too. :D

2010-11-29T21:21:00.002+08:00

"If you are alone, I'll be your shadow,
If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder,
If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile,
But anytime you need a friend, I'll just be me."

Went escape theme park today with Choonhiang, Samuel, Jia en, Xinying and Jonah today.

fun bonding session with choonhiang and samuel. LOL

hmm... actually nothing much to post. LOL bye~ :P

2010-11-28T17:50:00.003+08:00

Through being sick, I've finally realised who really cared about me. People who had posted on my facebook wall, msn-ed me, sms-ed me, tagged on my blog, took care of me either directly or indirectly and maybe asked around my condition, THANK YOU SO MUCH! I LOVE YOU ALL! :D

I dunno whether to feel happy when im sick coz i'll know who really cares, or should i feel sad because im suffering? LOL a blessing in disguise maybe?

There's so many people to thank, I'll list them all. :D i sweet right? xD

Thanks mom and dad, for taking care of me the whole night. (:

Thanks samuel and chiao wen for sending me sms asking how was i. (:

Thanks Choonhiang, Senmian, Chuanjie, Junkai, Nicholas, Shihui, Keller, Izzwan and Samuel(again) for posting/commenting on my wall trying to cheer me up and wish me a speedy recovery. (: and Remus, Nadhirah and Siying who liked those status, I take it as you'e trying to say the same thing as well? thanks! (:

Thanks Zawani, Weizie, Mr Terry Tan, Sheryl and Amelia for caring me in msn. (:

Thanks Jiamin who asked about my condition in fb chat. (:

Thanks Chuanjie, Minsein, Shihui, Nicholas, Sweeling and Ms Chia for taking care of me before my mum came. (:

That's about all? I hope I dun leave out any. haha. thanks guys! i love you all! :DD

2010-11-27T19:42:00.003+08:00

seriously, dun fall sick people.

Open house today was quite successful? even before open house commence, i'm already sick. damn shitz...

Went to break with choonhiang to toilet. den come back right eye got flash. dunno why. follwed by headache. then vomit. still performed the first round of performance though. but due to the flash and headache, i made damn lots of wrong notes. TT

lunch break... didnt had appetite. told samuel i was sick. den joined percussions for lunch so they knew i was sick. then min sein come down and say me lying on the bench, so he also know.

went to vomit for second time den went back to hall. amazingly, alot people know i was sick already. seniors were trying to bring the atmopshere up while trying to take care of me. LOL

was forced to sit a side. I WANT TO PERFORM FOR SECOND ROUND!!! T.T but i was too weak to even talk. people talk to me i was stammering and can only nod or shake head. was really retard. Process words very very slowly and coz bring words of my mouth. when ms chia talked to me, i kept trying to reply but keep stammering and couldnt talk. then seniors helped me talk to ms chiao. LOL

slept at the study cornet, listening to band practicing. Really hoped i was there practicing with them. TT

vomit for the third time. was forced by majors and ms chia to go home. haiz... I WANT PERFORM! T.T

called mum to pick me up. went home change and went to the doctor's.

vomitted a few times on the way and i was damn tired. eyes were barely opened. waited for my turn to go in. slept while waiting.

finally can go in. the think the doctor was rushing for lunch. he was rushing through check ups. den gave injection. I think he say i was experiencing stomach infection. after injection, stayed in the room for dunno how long alone coz i kept dozing off. LOL doctor said need to stay there. O.O

went back home slept, felt alot better. :D thanks guys for worrying abt me. LOL

really, dun fall sick. i have trouble even typing this post. typing slowed down, typo errors... gah... i want to be healthy again!

2010-11-26T18:52:00.002+08:00

yawnz... damn damn tired today. band today is tiring. i think i kept yawning. :P and frowning i guess. coz weizie and yaoren tot i angry. :P rehearsed for tmr's open house. PRI 6 THIS YEAR PLEASE COME HUA YI TOMORROW! :D hope will have someone join lower brass next year. :P

I'm really tired. really. I've never knew being a senior is so tiring. much less an SL and majors. To those having posts, I salute you. Next year I'm going to be sec 3 and the most senior in lower brass section after chuan jie and sen mian step down. i have no idea how im going to lead it or even maintain it's standard like how the previous SLs did. I dont want to be SL, IF im going be chosen. The responsibility is too big. I really have no idea how im going to cope. Sec 3 life, homeworks, senior. now SL? really, i WAS regretting quitting SC. SCs are not allowed to take up posts in band. Being a normal member, a junior, is so freaking awesome. You can make the worst mistake and no one will blame you for having experience. being a member without any posts, you wont have to worry abt the slightest thing/mistake your section make/made. it's totally carefree. I'm making this official: I DONT WANT ANY POST!!! nw i have no idea y i wanted to be band major and SL of lower brass when i was sec 1. guess i was just ignorant. =/

2010-11-25T13:39:00.004+08:00

This two idiots up there are the most awesome idiots in the world! :D CORRECTION: This two FRIENDS up there are the MOST AWESOME FRIENDS I HAVE! :D Samuel Chan Wei Keong and Chew Choon Hiang. I never failed to laugh in their presence. You will know the real meaning of insanity when you see the 3 of us together. And be grateful of how sane u are right now. :D

I want to let this 2 ~~idiots~~ FRIENDS know it's great to have them as friends. :D

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."

"A friend is someone who is there for you when he'd rather be anywhere else."
- Len Wein

"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart, and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words."

"Your friend is the man who knows all about you, and still likes you."
- Elbert Hubard

"Friends are the most important ingredient in this recipe of life."

"Friends are God's way of taking care of us."

"Friend - a person known well to another and regarded with liking, affection and loyalty."
- Collins English Dictionary

2010-11-24T20:26:00.002+08:00

ok fine, i'll blog since im so darn bored.

Thought of gifts for Chuanjie and Senmian when they leaving band next year. D: SENIORS MUST COME BACK HOR! :DD and finally thought of one. MUAHAHHAHA!

Went JP with hema and caught harry potter. slacked and back home.

Had been thinking im a really weird person. O.O I think calling a friend a "bastard" seems ok but calling a friend "asshole" sounds a bit rude. LOL but i still call my friends asshole. :P

ahhh... I want to get a ring so much! nope, no girlfriend or wife or crush. And a silver plate necklace that can craft my name on! hmm... my birthday is coming like... 2 months? :D people who call themselves my friends hor.. where are you~~ xD

2010-11-23T19:53:00.002+08:00

Had band exchange today at yishun primary. Out of the 5 schools, yishun primary concert band impressed me the most. hahas. they are just primary school and they can play ocean. damn lot of running notes! and their balance is nice! maybe it's their school, but still, they are good! their power hits was entertaining. LOLOLOL i love the part when the tuba stands up then the 3rd row, then the 2nd row followed by the 1st. WOOTS! TUBA STANDS UP! xD ok, huayi did fairly okay i guess. Conductors praised our clarinet section (Samuel dont get cocky here. LOL). but our tuning and rhythm have to be strengthened. we still have parts we slowed down in Ride. Super mario bros was entertaining for the audience. although i think some people had some minor mistakes somewhere in the beginning. enchanted... LOL! whole band rushed, flute solo was missing and tuba wrong notes. luckily audience wasnt paying too much attention to catch our mistakes. :P

2010-11-22T20:06:00.002+08:00

Went to band today at 7+. waited for band room to be opened till 8.30? change of plans and went for marching. i practically laughed half of the marching session with choon hiang. XD we were standing beside each other and keep joking. XD (i hope no majors see this. :P) went to lunch at 11. came back for sectional at 12. band ended at 3.30.

went to jp with genevieve, min hui, qin yan, chiao wen, samuel and choon hiang. bought clarinet's and trombone's section gifts for the 7 schools which are going for exchange too. joked on the way and of course, starved. :P

went to burger king to meet with shi hui, chuan jie, weizie, remus, chao xiang and nicholas. they grabbed samuel to ask some questions. me and choon hiang was deciphering wad they were talking abt. LOL end up im right! :P

bus-ed home with choon hiang and samuel. in the bus, was talking abt band people. and surprisingly, we have so much to talk that we need to rush through everything when our stops are reaching. LOL and still, havent finish talking. XD

me and choon hiang alighted at huayi back gate. walked with choon hiang to continue talking. LOL home-ed myself. met dad on the way and walked with him. haha

please stop spreading other people's secret. =.= they tell you because they trust u. and u just go around spreading it to everyone. what is this?! =.= you should just keep your mouth shut. =.= since im already scolding you, i might as well scold everything at once. stop being rude and start learning how to be polite. =.= after all, they are your seniors. you cant just go around saying "hey asshole" in their face. or saying their playing suck and u can play better than them. =.= hey, everyone is trying to learn here. what gives u the right to say they suck? do u see even one senior saying their junior or any other junior their playing skills suck? oh yea. you think trying to be close with majors are going to help you get a major post? HAHA! think twice. and acting like a major when you aren't definitely doesnt help at all. not that im jealous that u are close with majors, i just really cant watch it anymore. please act more mature.

Love

2010-11-20T22:10:00.002+08:00

"Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies" - Aristotle

"Love is the flower of life, and blossoms unexpectedly and without law, and must be plucked where it is found, and enjoyed for the brief hour of its duration." - D.H.Lawrence

"Love is a smoke made with the fume of sighs. Being purged, a fire sparkling in lovers' eyes. Being vexed, a sea nourished with lovers' tears. What is it else? A madness most discreet, a choking gall and a preserving sweet." - William Shakespear

Just what is love? Some says it's the action of showing care, some says it's the action when you say "I love you", others says it cannot never be described.

WARNING: To people being in love, please refrain from carry on reading.

Love, to me, is just something you experience and gives you a sense of insurity, a sense of belonging, happiness, blah blah blah for just a few weeks, or months. Then, it brings you a whole lot of hurt, despair, dissapointment, jealousy, etc.

I've been seeing people, alot of people, saying sweet stuff about their lovers on facebook, msn, or even talked to me about it. But after a few days or week, they are troubled being in love and posting emo things on facebook and blog etc.

Seriously, what's good being in a relationship or being in love? The end result is still the same: being hurt. Why fall into the trap if you know it's so damn deep and it will take you a whole lot of time climbing back up? Why hold a knife close to your heart if you know it will cut or stab you anytime and it will take a whale of time recovering the wound?

Yes, you may say I'm afraid of being in love. I'm admitting it. Seeing my friends getting hurt by love, I can't help being afraid. Being hurt by love once, I can't help being afraid.

My heart is closed now. I would have long been in love if I left it open.

Friends had been talking to me about the problems they faced in love. I am quite surprised myself too, that I have not been discouraging them to fall out of love, but on the other hand, I'm encouraging them to continue loving someone. Now, I guess I shall warn people not to talk to me about their love life. I am afraid I would just make things worse. Or I already had.

I'm not saying love does not exist, or I don't believe in love blah blah blah, or at least at this stage. Loving someone or even being loved by someone at this age, invites hurt. Growing older and experience love by then would be much more easier and happier as no one would be stopping you from loving someone to concentrate on your studies or work.

To those who are experiencing love, good luck! :D

2010-11-19T20:54:00.002+08:00

Band today was tiring. Seriously. XD but enjoyed it though. who am i kidding? im enjoying EVERY band practices. :P

samuel called my HOME at around 7.20 and rushes me to hurry up and meet him in sch while practice/(optional) sectional starts at 8. LOL

tried to get band room keys but ms chia and ms nasuha was not in and mdm angreini(?)... her "phone" got some problem i guess. LOL so waited for genevieve tocome den we went to general office together and take band room keys directly from general office.

we asked Mr Thiligan(?) for the band room keys and he was saying in monotone "Baaand... Rooom... Keeeys..." ROFL! we laughed on the spot though it seemed rude. :P when we were abt to leave, i heard Mrs Leong saying something like "So, tmr ok or not?" with ah lian accent to mr lau. ROFL

went to band room to practice. getting used to new mouthpiece :D choonhiang came and he arranged some quartermaster things den we went out to practice together since clarinetist occupied band room. LOL

played really random songs with choon hiang like "persis", "super mario" solo version, "love is like" LOL also practiced "ride" and "singapore flyer" (:

went back at around 11? den trained weizie. I must say i enjoy teaching. LOL went to mac to have lunch at abt 12. joked on the way there, eat and joked when eating, joked on the way back. never failed to laugh whenever im with samuel and choon hiang. hahas.

reached sch at around 1.30? played random songs with samuel and choonhiang like "die fledermaus", "mas que nada" and "ross roy". the band played along with us. LOL and im VERY proud to say this. I HAVE LEARNT MAS QUE NADA!!! WOOTS! although with some mistakes being made earlier today. xD but i've got my rhythm right!!! WOOTS! :D

warm-ed up with band and moved instruments down to hall to rehearse for open house. Percussion instruments are very VERY heavy. T.T was destined to carry bass drum and chimes and timpani. GAWD! ran back to band room dunno how many times and there's my heavy tuba too. the key word is HEAVY. LOL

played "El bimbo", "Enchanted", "Super mario bros" and "Ride" for rehearsal. shi hui conducted the whole rehearsal! WOOTS! huge round of claps to her. :D but we made damn lots of mistakes though. haiz... MUST PRACTICE!!! NO MISTAKE ON YUYING EXCHANGE!!! :D

after us was other performing arts rehearsing. we were given break. but most preferred to stay and watch, or slack. haha me and choon hiang went to sit behind samuel and had a good laugh at certain CCA (oops :P)

Mr tan came with 2 trombones. DOUBLE TRIGGER BASS TROMBONE IS SUPER CHIO!!! jealous of chiao wen. TT

CCAs other than band rehearsed another round. we were forced to sit at our places and well... slack? most people got bored. LOL

rehearsal was finally over and we carried on with our normal practice in the sch hall to train to play in open air. practiced "super mario", "dawn of a new day", "ride".

Qing xi stood up for ride solo. :D i think he played better when he stands up. haha.

Brought back instruments back to band room. carried percussion instruments too.. example chimes (again!) LOL everyone is finally back to band room. Shihui made some announcements and we packed our instruments to go home. :D nicholas came and passed me theory notes and trumpet solo CD. THERE'S LIBERTANGO AND RONDO ALLA TURCA! WOOTS! haha

that's it for today. :D

oh yeah, one last thing before i sign off.

TO those people who are slashing innocent people,

FUCK YOU BITCHES/BASTARDS!!! YOU are the cause my parents forbid me to go out with friends during the sch holiday. SCHOOL HOLIDAY DAMN YOU MOTHER F******! WE ARE SUPPOSED TO ENJOY IT! after one whole year of tolerating with suckish teachers now we have to tolerate ur fucking stupid, childish, idiotic, childish, juvenile, action of slashing random and innocent people?! WTF IS THIS! I WANT MY HOLIDAY!!! T.T FUCK YOU!

2010-11-18T15:58:00.004+08:00

Band today was quite fun.

Reached at 7.30+? practiced long notes untill warm up.
christ church reached after warming up. (:
played "ride", "el bimbo" and "enchanted" for them. screwed up "ride" and "enchanted" =.=

huayi band went for break while christ church warm up with mr tan.
most of us stayed to watch their warm up though.
after everything, hua yi band sat together with christ church band and practice.
sat beside a sec 2 christ church guy, his name is Christian.
HE'S FROM PEIXIN PRIMARY SCHOOL BAND LEHH~~~
felt so honoured to sit with him. LOL
he played damn loud. i was totally trashed. TT
i cant judge his tone though. it was neither good nor bad.
He's friendly but quiet (like me ROFL)
and he keep praising our sch. say our sch and our band room very big. LOL and our instruments all very new.
played "light of dawn", "nobody", "king and i", "choreography" and "dawn of a new day" with christ church band.

den mr tan gave us SYF'2011 set piece "The Singapore Flyer". sight-read. was relatively easy though. not yet go into chords and tuning though.
OH! AND MR TAN GAVE ME NEW MOUTHPIECE!!! MUAHAHHAHA!
GUESS WHAT?! IT'S PERANTUCCI! WOOTS! IT'S SO CHIO~~ AND IT'S A WHOLE LOT BETTER THAN THE ONE I USED! :D
shall take a pic of it and post it here and show it off next time. :P IT'S DAMN DAMN CHIO~~~ xD

Played "The Singapore Flyer" with christ church band and they had to leave already.
Huayi band continued with practice.
Played "fireside christmas" (anything else?)
practice ended, packed up extra chairs, practice awhile more, packed instrument.

There's this open house rehearsal tmr and next friday. =.= sian... we will be performing for how long? abt 30 min only? and we are supposed to stay for 2 hour. COMPLETE waste of time. haiz...
somemore next fri is FULL DRESS. LOL open house will be on next saturday. hope audience wont be as rude as last year's: watch ALL performance and when band is going to perform, everyone left. =.= seriously, people should realize playing a musical instrument is not easy.

so saturday evening/night will be hanging out with cousins and sunday will be watching movie with hema.

next tues will be the yuying exchange but location is at peixing pri. O.O
hope huayi band dun screw up or break down on that day.
hope i dun screw up or break down on that day. TT
heard from mr tan people think hua yi cant play ride.
Let's show them what we're made of yea? :D

EDIT: oh yea, i want to try "Memories of Friendship" (the other SYF'2011 set piece) too. like the name. xD

2010-11-15T19:44:00.004+08:00

Today is generally fun in band. :D spent almost 10 hours practicing. MUAHAHHAHA! xD but i dun see improvement O.O

Samuel was doing epic, stupid and funny stuff today. From lunch till around 5.40 plus he was crazy and making me laugh till i drop. LOL! wad he did was posted on facebook. :D

Mayflower people came over today. Amelia, Sheryl, Michelle and one trombone de. Had fun bullying Amelia and Sheryl and getting bullied by them. LOL

Please dun judge other's playing skills. =.= you are not any better than them. Plus, one of them is your senior after all! you aren't a professor in music or whatsoever. What or who gave u the right to judge their playing ability?! Keep this attitude up and I assure you that you will hate me next year due to scoldings. =.=

I totally have no idea how to prevent tuba section from collaps-ion next year when chuan jie leave. Would juniors doubt my playing skills? Yea, I suck and I'm not as good as Chuan Jie. Would juniors listen to me? Yea, I'm always so soft and pamper them alot. Would I be able to teach them how to play? Yea, my sightreading suck and my playing ability suck. Haiz... how i wish i had put in much much more effort last year. I wont be suffering now or next year... Speaking abt next year... Would Weizie and Yaoren be able to hold the tuba section when Chuanjie step down and when I have supp? Would they be as scared and helpless as i was last year when chuanjie wasnt around? Would they get scolded by Mr tan? Would they be discouraged if they got scolded? Haiz... I hate being a senior...

Why the heck is everything my fault?! It's HER exam! She's supposed to work hard for it! NOT ME! If she doesnt put in effort, what's the point of me teaching her then? She will still get the same result. You asked me to teach her. But she never once asked me for revision. nor was she grateful for my time when she asked for maths question. she will be pissed off at whatsoever reason and dump all her anger at me after i taught her. hey, i can be playing my com or talking to my friends instead of wasting precious time teaching things to a person who is not even grateful. =.=

2010-11-11T17:21:00.003+08:00

Ok, I'll starting pumping my long notes to train my tone. Hope my tone will improve fast. ):

Plans for the following three days (I dunno why I'm posting this) :

Friday(Tomorrow):

Shall go to sch and collect streaming results.
Go Kbox with Phyucyn, Wailwin and Christ if got time.
Rush to NCO thing after some hours of fun with them.
Back home at around 10 or 11 plus.

Saturday:

Jiamin would most probably come over so have to entertain him.
Meanwhile, I shall practice long notes on tuba.
(Maybe) Go Musica Fantasia "Grandioso" 5 with Choon Hiang and Samuel at night if they can make it
Back home at 9 or 10 plus.

Sunday:

Going out with Hema to catch a movie.
Unknown time of being back home.
Train long notes again if there's time after I reach home. :D

2010-11-10T21:21:00.002+08:00

hahas. after hema's lecture of sense, i've decided not to give up. :D and to have fun during band practices. afterall, everyone only gets 1 chance of being young. i will still try my best to improve though. thanks everyone for encourangements! :D

2010-11-09T13:52:00.003+08:00

ok i'll mostly post emo stuff on my blog and facebook for now. coz posting wad happened everyday is sianz. :P

people who say if you have passion on something, u will definitely do well in that area, is bullshit! jun kai has no passion for band and yet, he's so pro, while im the total opposite... life as an adult is going to be realistic and not having as much imagination as we are now. why not find something im good in and stop wasting my time in my passion but not doing well in it? that's more realistic...

2010-11-08T18:55:00.002+08:00

ok fine. im going to post today. realised im especially asshole today. LOL! mainly to choon hiang, chuan jie, genevieve and min hui. :P sorry!

I'm not making any improvement in my tone. =.= it's still rough and thin and so awful! unlike those round and nice tone other people play. and to make things worse, everytime i hear a nice tuba sound, i get disheartened instead of being motivated. T.T i guess i should really give up the hope of becoming musician. yes, i know it's not like me to give up and it isnt "right" to give up but if not making improvements and still suck, which band or orchestra will accept me as a tuba player?! there's no point pursuing what i cant do well but have a passion in it. instead, society looks for people who are good in an area but dun care if they really like that professioncy they are. i must wake up and see what im good at instead of letting my imagination run wild and keep thinking i will be a musician in the future. =.=

there! i posted! :D

2010-11-05T23:15:00.002+08:00

ok... so i deleted all links i linked. O.O tag me with ur link if u want to be linked. :D

2010-11-01T19:10:00.002+08:00

wow. im actually blogging after 1 year and 1 month. LOL amelia will be s damn happy. she kept pestering me to blog. LOL

anw, beware of vulgarities. today i just not my day. =.=

let's just start on the afternoon.

went for band with excitedment. after warming up with mr tan, he gave us first love and i was happy. im still happy after sight reading but my mood just gets worse after playing dawn of a new day. i fucking screwed up every song i played. =.= even dawn of a new day and fireside christmas. like wth? these are easy pieces and we practiced for so long! either it's wrong note or wrong timing. i just cant perfect one single piece today. =.=

however, i get to know myself better after today. I'm fucking stubborn, sort of a perfectionist and have this fucking stupid feeling to win everything(arguments, debates, competitions...). =.= FML

i would probably be cursing someone right now if i'm not so pissed with myself. LOL

2009-10-26T18:03:00.002+08:00

Ta-dah! blog revived! lols! due to the popular demand for blog reviving and my boredom, i've decided to blog again! :)

so bored in sch and at home... ahh! also nth to post abt. lols!

during duty... 11am bell ring... some came running to his class shouting "AHH! Help! Someone's going to whack my balls!" i contolled my laughter... my buddy, out of randomness, said "Whack la! whack somemore, i cut ar!" i broke into laughter and my buddy thought i went crazy...

L0LS!

I want to buy it!!! ROARS! It makes me go mad!!! T.T

2009-09-02T17:29:00.002+08:00

W00TS!!! blogger have finally recovered! =DD so long didnt post liao. sad to say, my blog will now be officially offered a death certificate. it will be dead from now. 5.32pm on 2nd september untill further notices. meaning, i will revive it. muahahaha! it's already dead anyway. and no people would come and read my posts right? so lol! no difference anyway.

2009-08-27T20:49:00.000+08:00

Today really happy. laughed the first time since long time ago. lols!

morning had assembly. watched videos of ghosts. and some girls screamed. XD i was chionging my maths homework but keep looking on the screen. XD

Bio and Maths was usual. noisy but boring.

RECESS! bell rang i ran back to class take ingridients to HE room den rush back to duty. she cried out of stress. jian shu comforted her and made her laughed. me and other her was speechless. guess we are not good at comforting. XD

after recess is HE. chiong chiong chiong everything. me and austin team is the last to finish. scalded when grilling. roars! i sacrificed! so mrs lee better give us higher marks. XD he took 3 sticks of himself and somemore wan our recipe. L0L! mrs lee said it was too salty though. alot people say it's nice. ^^

after HE is MT. i can sense that zheng lao shi going crazy ove our noisy class. L0L!

so after MT went home to put HE stuff wif sheng mu. den went back sch found out that lingyin mindy and him is at mama shop. so me and sheng mu go there meet them. waited for mindy and lingyin to finish their food. den we went back school and went out of the back gate to 7-eleven. the girls ate mash potato. i ate bowl noodles and he ate cup noodles.

tok tok tok den go back sch. den they went home. all ps me. D; den i did homework. phyucyn came and offered to help me do one page of it. muahaha! XD

den shaun came. he played DM wif keith. and we went up to the hall without phyucyn as she went to the toilet. she later joined us up there. lols! we were too noisy up there so amanda offered to go down to the canteen.

we were playing wif lady gaga's stuff. and named ourself Lady GagaGaga(her), Lady Gila(him), Lady GayGay (some unknown person). den took pictures. but i was forbidden to post it and blogger cant let me post it.

the hall was cleared and we went up. put our bags down and started working. take chairs, take mike stands. den the rehearsal started. the band is so so nice! so proud of them. lol! den blah blah blah. after ELDDS logistics team bored liao. coz nothing to do. sian la. do nothing for like 1 hour? which i can use it to do lit! roars!

home at 7. missed my tv programme. TT

2009-08-24T18:25:00.000+08:00

Hola! I'm back!

Just now cooked Shrimp Satay with Peanut Sauce wif Sheng Mu. quite a success i guess? but we used too much time and too much curry powder. so yeah, gonna make improvements on wednesday and thursday. XD So sad blogger cant put photo. coz i actually took the picture of our Shrimp Satay with Peanut Sauce. Ling Yin, Wai Lwin and Phyucyn thumb-ed up. XD =D

2009-08-21T18:43:00.000+08:00

ATTENTION! Obasanz are 3 month old now! W00TS! lols!

In addition, we discovered a new way to suffer people. muahahaha! not only that, we found out that the compass not only can draw circles. XD and we learnt how to rape by our teacher. lols! we have to rape in the time given and record our speed down. XD that teacher also said that this guy A can rape 70 beauties per min and guy B can rape 75 beauties per min. it's obvious that guy B is more fit but he said guy A is more fit than guy B. L0L!

2009-08-18T19:34:00.000+08:00

Today's band practice is the best ever! lols! ok. let me start the story. XD

it was a usual day. waking up at 6.30 and going off to sch at 7. slacked whole day in sch. =X music lesson started to get high. lols! so music ended early today. at 1.45 we were allowed to go home.

slack slack wif obasanz + Timothy + ding chen + mindy(?). actually wan to eat wif them but they keep slacking. -.- den i lost one of my meal today. TT lol!

so went to band room at 1.55. prepared intrument, took scores blah blah blah. and this is the very first time the juniors were warming up in the band room while waiting for the band major to tell us where to go. cool rite? XD

so mr tan came. and he counted that juniors onli left 15. however, onli 9 is present. sec 2's went for kayaking(dunno how spell) and 2E2 people went to IKEA trail. main band also lost 8 people(mostly from 2E2). so mr tan talk talk talk saying if we dun have valid reasons for absent, he will kick us out. blah blah blah.

so finally, nicholas, the band major, asked us to go to class 2E2 for junior practice. so off we go. this is also the very first time i did not go back to the band room to take my stuff. ^^ nicholas asked everyone to help those wif big intruments. muahahaha! XD

in 2E2, we arranged the chairs and tables and warmed up. Cynthia from main band joined us shortly after. she said mr tan asked her to join us. so keep warming up. dunno mr rassull was doing wad. lol! den someone came and said we were too noisy and the GCE O level oral is going on in the school hall. so we have to take everything and went to the band room. someone said that we are joining the main band for practice. den everyone was moaning. lols!

so everyone walked slowly on the way to the band room. =X den nicholas asked us to go up a different staircase. den everyone was like "i tot go band room?". ended up in the air rifle room. w00ts! at least not wif the main band. xD nicholas and ming hong took chairs from band room for the juniors.

set up in the air rifle room. and started warming up again. mr rassull then asked us to play concert Bb major scales. den usual stuff. at 4, we had a break untill 4.15. i asked cynthia how was it and she said it was "sian". lols!!

went to canteen to drink ice lemon tea and ate the choco something de. went back to air rifle room after we ate(was eating and drinking wif ming hong and samuel). we were late by 1 min and they already started on number 4 on page 7.
we dun have problems to that though. so it's quite easy for us. mr rassull then asked us to play concert Eb major scales. and 4 bars of the scale studies for Eb major. managed to pull through though it's still a stranger to me.

5 pm strucked and mr rassull went off. me, qiao wen, samuel, ming hong and vivian stayed for more practice. this is where the fun part comes. lols! vivian packed up so she was acting the conductor. samuel was not concentrating and toking stuff mr rassull and mr tan talked about. "junrong, too sharp! pull out a bit." lol? "ok. edelweiss. 2 bars for nothing." and he started counting damn fast. lols! and i tried to catch up. XD and it sound super werid for a slow music like edelweiss. XD

i became bored and suddenly let out a super loud Bb. it was the loudest since i touched my tuba. i managed to fightened everyone in the air rifle room. muahaha! XD im so evil. lols!

we packed up at 5.30 and went home. =D

2009-08-17T16:46:00.000+08:00

few days didnt post liao. now im back to action! muahahah! sound evil. XD

started to think that facebook and blogger is connected in some ways. lol! both "sick" at the same time wif the same format. TT so bored~

this few days quite emo. den this girl tot i angry wif her. lol! sorry ar.

2009-08-05T18:06:00.000+08:00

oh great! now blogger is sick again. facebook also! wad they get? Swine Flu? roars!

today was rather "rough". coz since woke up emo liao. dreamt of something. dunno will happen or not. dunno wan it to happen or not.

2.4km run like siao. run wrong way somemore. TT actually nid go side gate but i took the slope. WTH! so basically, i ran more than 2.4km. TT den rest after that run. den now feel sick. sleepy, hot, and no energy. oh yeah! i remembered she passed me 3 times. no wonder so serious now. lol! -.-

feel like creating a private blog onli for me. should i? sorry obasanz but there's really something i have to keep it to myself.

2009-08-02T19:09:00.002+08:00

W00SH W00SH! Today super happy! =D XD

woke at 9 plus. ate and used com. later went out wif mum go buy new school shoes. i dunno wad happened to my old one but my parents say it's spoiled. lol! ok. so reach home already 1.30. when that's the meeting time wif them.

den faster bath and take bus to library. found out that they also havent reach. but reaching soon. so anyway, i'll still be the latest. TT

so reached. den went up to 3rd floor look them coz he say they at 3rd floor. cant find them so called her. den walk while calling saw each other half way. den she brought me to where he was.

saw her laptop showing her e-journal. so reminded me i also have to do. so rushed through and saved in my thumbdrive. sms-ed girlfriend asked if she wanted to join us. but she was busy la. TT she guessed who's that and bull's eye. haiz... regret telling her though. lol! jkjk. den slacked while we have to do project. den tok tok tok. i was writing the fingerings for my scores. (1 month later have band test solo-ing a song infront of whole band!!! AHH!)

den later she and i were hungry. so decided to go buy food. went back to interchange. i bought carrot cake, spring roll and 3 fishballs. they bought cheesy sausage. den i sat down to eat while they went into a cake shop after they finished their sausages.

she saw this nice cake and asked me go in. we planned to ask him pay for us but too bad. D; he bought strawberry cake. we sat down and eat. she was stuggling wif the plastic around her cake. L0L! after she successfully got rid of the plastic, she had a hard time eating the cake. lol! he and i was laughing all the way. XD

he have to go home after this. we persuade like wth. however, he insist on going home. so no choice luh. went popular wif her.

went to CD-rama look for KO3anguo soundtrack and she found it like without effort? i was crazy when i had my hands on them. 33> lol! den slacked wif her in popular. her parents came and she asked her mother to buy her new moon, eclipse and breaking dawn. her mother didnt even cough! she just nodded! oh gosh! her mother so good! lol!

i bought lime and lemon juice and went home.

on the bus, spilled a bit of the juice. TT feel so guilty. lol!

2009-08-01T18:50:00.002+08:00

W00TS!!! just finish watching KO 1. next coming is the 55 episode X-Family! clap clap! =D XD im pausing k.o.3anguo for them coz they are 2 series before k.o.3anguo. and k.o.3anguo also sure will have 50+ episodes and it's airing once a week now so dun wan wait, watch x-family first. XD

KO 1 was kinda boring at first. maybe because i know wad's gonna happen next by going wikipedia. XD but it's damn nice at the later part. 3> they defeated the bad guy. and a story of romance just started at the late 10+ episode. people who love romance stories, this isnt a drama to be missed. =D

KO 1 is about 3 guys namely, Wang Da Dong, Wang Ya Se and Ding Xiao Yu acted by Jiro Wang, Kelvin Chen and Aaron Yan respectively. they are all from fahrenheit. wu chun is in the drama too. but he's not the main lead. the story goes wif the trio facing troubles and solving it. troubles are more difficult each time. some characters are mystery.

it's not fun anymore for me to give out any more secrets. lols! find out urself from watching this drama! =D

2009-07-31T20:44:00.000+08:00

lols? blogger sick again? it was perfectly fine yesterday. TT

today was kinda fun? but at the same time wan to go home fast badly. lol! weird feeling. XD

ok. start off wif english lesson. learnt factual recount and was intructed to create a mindmap whereby we are the witness. den wrote about a murder using car. mrs firdous then asked joshua and chongsing be the recorders. shaun volunteered himself to share his story wif whole class.

nice story! =D XD though some gory stuff in it. den mrs firdous asked us to be detectives and shoot questions at shaun. den we found out that shaun is lying by huiyin's question "u said it's after school so y is the ally dark?" L0L!! shaun was like speechless. XD den he expected the class to ask him if the murdered was wearing gloves when holding the crowbar but no one asked. den i tot wouldnt the murderer bring the crowbar wif him if he really wants to murder? so how could detectives find it? even if he really left it behind forensic scientist would have tested for fingerprints. so that question shouldnt be asked. den he said that the ally is narrow so sunlight couldnt get in so it was dark den i tot how to kill someone in such a narrow place? gosh! shaun was really lying! lols! is he the murderer? :O

lol! damn fun la. but i didnt ask wad i wanted to ask. lol!

den after school obasanz went mc wif timothy. i have band. so cant go wif them. in band badly wan it to end faster. cursing the conducter in my heart the whole period. L0L!! dunno y. XD

finally end at abt 4.30!!! W00TS!!!

girlfriend called when i reached home. asked me if can go her house. den go lor. no time bathe. TT den take bus. blah blah blah reached her house at abt 1 hour later! Crap! it was 5 plus! reached at 6 plus! roars! den slacked at her house. den went supermarket wif her. took bus there.

she bought stuff. den cursing a shop nearby say will open but didnt open. lol! den walked back her bus stop. on the way made her jealous by how little our HE and DNT doing but her school do so lot. L0L!!! love making her jealous. XD

reached her bus stop at 7. took the bus. farewell-ed. sms her on bus. den started to rush liao. SBS bus really Si Bei Slow eh! lol! make me reach home at 8. damn it. den rush through everything at home. no time do homework. crap!

2009-07-27T17:02:00.000+08:00

Oral today was not smooth. TT no confident lehs. Have to pray hard liaos. TT

2009-07-24T17:06:00.002+08:00

band was cool(?) today. mr tan taught us. about 4 juniors didnt come den mr tan damn not happy say they have to write letter. o.o

den practiced the slow version of wad seniors are doing for warm up.

seniors were packing/tidying scores.

den 4.30 went home seniors turn to play.

mr tan said some other days juniors have to do solo for the whole band. pray that i dun have a difficult piece and everything go smooth...

2009-07-23T17:57:00.003+08:00

for 3 days, i cant find this transparent box. -.- lol!

im not going to go back to the past to post everything. coz tmr have geog test and i've wasted enough time.

today super happy. found out im not so pathetic as i tot. L0L!

home econs cooked fried rice. we onli have 1 hour home econs which is like unfair? i want more time!!! lols! next week gonna cook hamburger (hopefully? coz last week cutlery tray placed wrongly den mrs lee say cant cook next week)

after sch stayed for geog supplementary. after geog went to do homework in canteen. den inthend onli left me in canteen.

den went to grandma house slack and ate the fried rice we cooked/fried wif enteng. feel so happy when eating. lols! dun get the wrong idea. -.-

den ling yin called me asked me go sc room do homework. so rushed from grandma house to huayi. rushed up to sc room. and saw phyucyn, ling yin and huimin(if im not wrong) there.

den sc room damn quiet. not used to it. lols! den do homework.. den other scs came.

tok abt something. den i done my homework so listen to their discussion. jasmine was "bullying" tao guang. lols! damn funny. XD den rebecca keep saying stressballs make me and phyu cyn think sick. XD

after that, scs went to bubble tea shop including me and lingyin. phyucyn went home coz she dun wan walk. lols! den rebecca spilled her drinks on her skirt. jian shu say she so old liao still dunno how to pee. LOL!!!

"tmr how wear skirt liddat?"
"dun wear skirt la"
"dun wear skirt wear wad?"
"wear our pants lor"

LOL! these people are damn funny. XD

2009-07-19T13:43:00.002+08:00

woohoo! tmr is MONDAY! lols! gonna go sc room for PMP briefing. going sc room for 1st time! woots! LOL! i mad liao.

last night bullied her till she kneel down and beg me. muahaha! fun leh. XD u should try it too. XD LOL!

also found out from her something. cleared my curiousity liao. but also fishy. den this morning tot of it. den makes sense. should i tok to him abt this? confused...

2009-07-17T14:19:00.002+08:00

yay! got selected from sc interview!! XD now is onli the trail period. den mr lee will see how we progress. den take out those who are not suitable to be sc. but if nothing happen, the 30+ of us will be considered sc liao. ^^

2009-07-16T15:03:00.002+08:00

today had home econs. i did milo and enteng did sandwich. milo sounds complicated from wad mrs lee says. and i wasnt quite sure so keep asking joel. den joel also keep asking me. lols! den boil water... pour milo powder... pour milk... den pour boiled water. done! lols! done liao helped enteng wif sandwich. den finally finish.

drank my milo in class. wa! super happy. coz u can feel the success feeling inside u when u taste ur food. lols! but it wasnt really success though. XD coz my milo taste the same as mineral water. LOL! joel's also. den enteng and huiyin whisper whisper. lols!

sandwich was nice. coz durian filling. XD dun like sardine. XP lols! just super happy when i taste the food we made. XD

next week gonna cook fried rice! =D restaurant somemore! XD

2009-07-15T17:24:00.007+08:00

EXTRA HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NISHA!!!

lols! let's sing birthday song for her!! =D

Happy Birthday to you~
Happy Birthday to you~
Happy Birthday to Nisha~~~
Happy Birthday to you~

lols! today was quite smooth. but have even weird feelings. and i got disappointed i think. lols! nvm. XD

*Excited for weekends!!! XD =D*

2009-07-14T18:55:00.001+08:00

ROARS! Today damn unhappy. People, things, feelings go wrong. =.=haiz... nvm. dun wan tok abt those stuff.

2009-07-13T15:18:00.001+08:00

today forgot bring thermometer. den kena detention for 2hr. sit there like retard. -.-

haiz... nth much to tok abt today also.

after school just eat and go home.

now bored...

coz of them la!

pangseh me. TT

lols!

2009-07-11T19:20:00.002+08:00

today went grandma house eat kuey. delicious kuey! *lick fingers* lols! cant buy outside de wor. jealous rite? lols! jkjk. ok let's kill time by writing down the details.

woke up at 7++. den set off at 8. reach grandma house liao they not making yet. so me and sis slack slack awhile.

den liping came at 9+? but she went out wif uncle and onli came back at 11. den we watch tv. slack slack. den ying xiang came without peilu. D; he say she nid go somewhere.

den he came into our room, the first thing liping asked was "what happen to ur face?!" LOL! den he's like dunno-leh de face. den damn bored. so we went out of room to the living room do revision.

den aunt came. she asked the same question wif liping. LOLS! den ying xiang wan revenge. he say "aiya. at least i not that short." LOLS! den liping replied "wth? i short nvm ma. at least i have a cute face" LOL!!! i was like laughing there. XD ying xiang speechless liao. XD

den revise dao sian. lols! den play game. ying xiang played my handphone. liping wanted my sis's DS. but my sis keep snatching away. LOL! den liping gave up liao. den she keep making funny jokes.

haiz... den 4 liping go home lers. D; den ying xiang still playing. den i bored. so i slept... untill 5+ when ying xiang going home. but i still wan to continue my sleep.

den the noisy kids arrive. irritate me till i woke up angrily. roars! stuck my earpiece in my ears and enjoy music. and at the same time not "enjoying" noise.

father come liao. he tok tok wif grandma den we went home! =D

quite boring la. XD

2009-07-10T19:55:00.002+08:00

woke up at 8. brush, wash, eat, sleck, bath. set off to jp at 10.

reached jp at 10+. loitered around jp while waiting for them. after a few min, she sms-ed me to wait for her at the 7-eleven entrance.

so i went to wait for her. phyucyn came. we waited for the remaining people. ling yin came. den lin sen sms me say he reaching soon. left the girls to wait for shengmu. met them at lvl 3 den go gv together.

confused abt wad movie to watch. some wan ice age. some wan transformer. i wan 20th century boys 2. another wan girlfriend past. but ended up in transformers. so asked the oldest one go buy tickets. XD we bully him again. lols!

bought nacho combo. shengmu also bought nacho. lols! influenced from me? XD phyucyn bought mash potato combo. ling yin bought coke. den we went into the cinema.

the most left was lin sen. followed by shengmu. then ling yin, phyucyn and me. i was forced to sit wif phyucyn and linsen also forced to sit wif shengmu. beware of these girls. they dun give u a choice. LOLS!

phone rang in the middle of the comercials because SOMEONE sms me. lols! den sms back lo. den silent my phone. XD

show start liao transformer start liao! =DD so excited! lols! den watch half way that SOMEONE sms back. purposely interupt me. grr! lols! but i was onli excited when it start. when the show goes on i got bored. lols! so chat chat wif that SOMEONE.

den SOMEONE dun wan disturb liao. so back to bored time. i suck. i irritate. lols! den near the ending i was experiencing my reaction back then when i watched ponyo. -.- just that not so serious ba.

so after transformers sms back to SOMEONE saying the movie not nice. coz i dun understand. XD but it does have a lot of sense of justice. =D but den kena scolding coz SOMEONE like that movie. D;

after movie went to buy present for nisha. den went library wif lin sen and sheng mu take pic for the chinese elearning.

1st prob faced-cant take pic in library.
2nd prob faced-cant borrow books because we have "outstanding" 45 cents of fine. -.-
3rd prob faced-cant use handphone in library. i was talking to SOMEONE then.
4th prob faced-cant pay the fine wif the new ez-link card.

i am so hating the library now. so we go take pic outside the cafe. go buy mineral water. den go home.

joke joke wif shengmu and linsen while going to the bus stop. den 187 came saw phyucyn and ling yin inside waving to us. den linsen say "oh ya! i forgot here no 187!" me and sheng mu was like smoke coming out from our ears. lols! den we walk back to bus interchange.

den keep talking abt k.o.3anguo wif linsen and shengmu got pissed cause she didnt watch and dun understand. XD but we continue shortly after. lols!

reached interchange bought my lunch. spent $4 on that. TT lols! nvm. den go wait for bus. emo-ed while waiting. lols! yea. 3 of us emo-ing. XD bus when we realized it, we laughed. LOLS! den keep talking abt k.o.3anguo. XD den got one time lin sen asked me what happened and i say the famous phrase they say. LOL! wa. lin sen really from ELDDS. act like he really understand liddat. lols!

bus come ler! took the back seat. den when turning, i moved towards sheng mu, lin sen also moved towards her. den she still blur blur. lols! den we squeezed her again. xD den we used the wu la ba ha joke. XD den shengmu got pissed again. lols!

den i reached home. but i realized i left my present at the library. TT $13 gone! told SOMEONE abt it. SOMEONE was furious. lols! SOMEONE can join obasan liaos. XD den SOMEONE helped me call the library. but to no avail. TT $13 really gone~

den found out that ling yin at phyucyn house. den havent do chinese. so go her house do. haiz... no mood though. but SOMEONE called and made me laughed. XD thanks ya! =D

after i done my homework, helped wif phyucyn and ling yin de. den go home!

took 187. after 3 stops saw ling yin taking the bus i taking. lols! coz she leave 2 min earlier than me ma. xD den 1 stop before i getting down she sitting behind me. lols!

den reach home! =DD

2009-07-09T16:43:00.002+08:00

today went phyucyn house wif lin sen den kena camp outside coz shengmu and/or ling yin didnt come. haiz...

den we sit on newspaper. den drink pepsi using cups. XD i use green lin sen use blue. lols! phyucyn laugh dao siao pouring pepsi into our "cups" XD

den we joked. bla bla bla. den phyucyn let us use com. so i did all elearning homeworks i left. except chinese. take pic liao den cant upload. -.- haiz...

den make me so not happy. haiz... den eat instant noodles go home liao.

excited for tmr!! gonna go out wif them! and watch that! =DD

2009-07-08T11:45:00.002+08:00

i changed my blogskin a few days ago. and dun quite like something. so asked my friend to help me change. but forgot to save the old template so I LOST ALL THE LINKS!

so PLEASE TELL ME YOUR LINK if ur name dont appear in my links. THANK YOU AND SORRY!

2009-07-07T21:44:00.003+08:00

today went interview. lol! very excited. XD 8.30 went to meet phyu cyn and ling yin. in the end, phyu cyn pangseh us go wif shaun to the interview. bad girl. XD

den me and joey go same class. so we slack slack there. ling yin same class wif phyu cyn and shaun. den the sc asked if we want go out of the class den me and joey go out wif ling yin. den joey say wan do elearning. so we went to com lab 1.

den do 4 sub-question of physics go back the interview class again. lol! this time a bit nervous liao. but still excited. XD

den 10 liao they asked me go another class for interview. TT didnt get to go sc room. lol! those who interviewed me was amanda, rebecca, kelly, cherubim, ying chong, the treasurer and 2 other guys.

lol! very fun leh! XD though i dunno y i spout rubbish. xD cherubim was like not happy wif my ans. lol! but she also make me feel not so nervous la. XD

so interview over, i went home change. went to phyu cyn house. did some elearning work. and play whole day. sheng mu came half way. and i made her kill phyu cyn. LOL! she brought her laptop containing maple there. den me and ling yin was like envy envy. XD phyu cyn was bored. coz she didnt play maple de. me and ling yin de com cannot play liao. D;

den phyu cyn bored damn scary de. look like she angry. lol! den i scared liao. go pei her. but keep turning my head to sheng mu screen. lol! cant control. XD

lunch time! =D phyu cyn mother cook for us! have seaweed wrapping chicken, potato, egg and tom yam soup! me and sheng mu crazy over it. XD sheng mu and ling yin fighting for the egg. LOL! den i take the last part they stare at me. XD sheng mu snatched part of my egg! D;

den eat half way some crazy woman scared me. first thought came into my mind was "old woman from drag me to hell!" LOL! first time also liddat. beware of her i tell u. XD

den phyu cyn really not happy like her soldiers liddat. hungry angry angry de. eat finish me kena bully. bad people. den see sheng mu playing maple in aqua road can keep jumping den she ask the character not to bounce. LOL!

den the 4 of us think sickly wif the cups. den say got size M one. wth? somemore say size D already very big. den i laugh laugh laugh like i escaped from woodbridge. LOL!

den phyu cyn teacher come liao. i bored like mad. LOL! messed wif maple. damn noob. TT

den we pangseh phyu cyn go popular. muahahaha! xD den go to jp de for phyu cyn and her sis sake. den fun trip going there. XD tok abt contact lens. i start de conver leh! so proud of myself. LOL! i seldom start conver de ok? at least i dun remember. XD

ok. so we reached. we walked. and while waiting for the traffic lights, we sang different version of just dance. XD happy, emo, angry. yea. we are kind of retarded. XD

ok. so we went popular. look for books. but dunno which one to choose. so asked ling yin and sheng mu choose for me. LOL! when we cant decide, i used my obasan power! see which one more worth it. XD

den bought files for the sisters. den look for ling yin's sketch book in the end dun wan buy. LOL! we were chionging then. coz sheng mu have to rush home. and she wan to go wif us. den paid. and blah blah blah. enjoyed free air and air-con. lol! obasan behaviour havent turn off yet. xD

den took 187 wif sheng mu. laughed all the way. shared experiences. most are mine. XD should be stories ba? XD the beginning of the year really damn funny. LOL! me, quiet junrong, obviously lying, LOL! den shengmu and her was like "quiet meh?" wif the suspicious looks when i was crazying. XD

den somemore say switch partners wor. damn pro. shengmu and her say me wif this girl. him wif another girl. den going well. den suddenly switch girlfriends. LOL!!! can u imagine having an agreement to switch girlfriends? LOL!

ok. so i reached home. ate, watched tv and here i am posting late at night.

2009-07-06T12:49:00.005+08:00

Gosh! im crazy over KO3anguo thanks to lin sen and ling yin! they keep toking about it and made me have the feeling to watch it. the songs and the drama is super nice. <33

tmr she have something on not going liao. TT nvm. go myself.

SC interview sounds fun!!! =DD not nervous for some reason. suddenly dun feel like becoming sc. lol!

-edit-
he looked back at the past and found that he was stubborn, arrogant and childish. he slept for half a year and just woke up recently to find that he was actually happy both in the dream and the present. he promised himself that he will be happy and face all challenges from now on.

lol! that's just a bunch of crap i wrote out of boredom. XD
-edited-

-edit-
i am so into KO3!!! lol! here's 3 version of their song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2vQfFq9Az7s
this is opponent/rival by wu hu jiang, champion and dong cheng wei

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B9EvzGhzVVU&feature=related
friends by wu hu jiang, kristen ren and wu xiong

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ttb5lviHFdM
enough love sang by pets ceng music by dong cheng wei

it's damn nice! both music and drama. lol! 3>
-edited-

2009-07-05T13:46:00.000+08:00

so excited for tues!!! LOL! not because sc interview but going out wif phyucyn lingyin and her!!! didnt really tok much wif her recently. because of them la! lol! nvm.

tmr cannot go her house. D; she have maths tuition. sadded. so have to stay at home and do elearning lo. no help, no fun. but tues after we go out i think i going her house. continue wif elearning. =D

Tuesday faster arrive!!! =DD

2009-07-04T14:28:00.002+08:00

oh. so u think i cant be sc? and there's no justice if i be one? just because u hate me i cant be sc? can u grow up??? there's no justice for u to be sc. i take neo prints wif them u jealous is it? aiya. of course la. u take neo print onli have ur face. ur body and other people cant be captured in the photo so they dun wan take wif u. nvm. dun be sad. pls have some creativity too. u keep using the same old tricks on her over and over again. u think she is happy for tat? she treats u as a friend that's y she's not angry. pls stop. u have no rights to hurt her.

i no respect people? i onli dun respect those who dun deserve it. u are one example. and wow! u can foresight! can u see urself in the farm? oh and, shouldnt u be thinking of ways to patch them up instead of saying i'll be happy? oh please, she's still my friend mind u? kindly take off ur smiling mask and put on ur true devil mask. as people are seeing ur horns already.

she sit beside u is to help u ok? not for u to treat her as dog. u are no difference as one either. keep saying u can be sc den y arent u selected? oh please. at least they know their limits. u cant! tat's far worse.

i dunno wad happened between u and her but i know she wants forgiveness. cant u just forgive her? arent this wad they call friends?

"hating people requires alot of energy eh?
i guess u are rite.
but they just cant be forgiven."

2009-07-03T17:20:00.003+08:00

went to insane obasan's house wif shengmu and blind obasan to do project after sch. cute obasan and mindy dunno do wad den didnt go.

so we bang our way from general office to the bus stop. reach bus stop blind obasan den realize dun have mindy's graph. so he dun have mindy's number so called cute obasan. but call 5 times didnt pick up so he gave up. ya, he's not resilience. XD

so took bus to insane's house. the bus was crowded and no seats for us so we stand. keep losing our balance and nearly fall. after the "fall" we laughed. XD people think we crazy. lol!

found seats for the 4 of us together. is one stretch de. so insane and shengmu took the sides. blind sit closer to insane. and i sit closer to shengmu. blind keep squeeze insane. lol! it's damn damn funny. people think we crazy again. lol!

so reached. bought peach tea for shengmu and went up to insane's house. did the project. but onli me and blind do. girls bully us. but we conquered the laptop after wards. XD

watched k.o.3anguo wif the laptop and insane sis. den the girls come and say they nid our laptop. so we exchanged. but dun wan watch liao. XD den blind and me go join the girls blog hopping. den saw alot of funny funny kind of picture.

den laugh because of shengmu's sick mind. den onli insane and shengmu drink peach tea. den onli have 2 cups ma. den shengmu tot blind got drink. den she asked "eh blind, u no cup ar?" LOL! we laughed like crazy. den insane say "of course la! he no cup"

den shengmu went at 3.45 liddat. den left me, blind and insane. we played the ball game. think straight now. no more sick minded shengmu. XD den we keep attacking people wif the ball. den the ceiling very low ma. so we keep bouncing the ball to the ceiling and pissed insane off. it's damn funny. XD

den insane sis found one kissing game and everyone interested. LOL! shocked eh? XD after that game me and blind went home together. XD

outside the door still laughing. laughing at insane's insane. lol! soldiers attack when u are (h)angry. XD ok. so took bus home wif blind. =DD

2009-07-01T16:40:00.002+08:00

ok. third day of sch was not weird anymore. lol! it was rather fun! =D

hmm... went to take the sc form from general office. and promoted myself. muhahaha! XD den... blah blah blah. havent found teachers to sign yet. mr lee, ms tracey and mr tan was not found in staff room. mr razak was busy. so tmr den sign ba.

tat's all! =D

2009-06-30T17:44:00.002+08:00

130th post! =DD

firstly, sorry to the 7eleven in shi ting's blog! i dunno u are her friend. sorry!

ok. weird things continue to happen. just not weird weird. i mean... nvm. lol! mrs firdouse is like mdm suriani! lol! dayjavoo?(dunno how spell) wow.. going back p6 years. XD

ok. mrs firdouse gave not a very impression when she entered our class. but after greeting her, she cracks jokes and stuff. she's not going to be tat fierce i believe. end of lesson scolded jia min coz he said her lesson very boring so we greeted like old man and aunties.

music teacher ms leow? she seems nice to bully. worry abt her safety in our class liao. lol! but we gonna learn piano for free! =DD god! im really obasan. XD

oh ya! recess the chicken rice store no chilli!!! tat is like so so important to me! haiz... chicken rice taste so damn weird without it. and i tot phyu cyn how to be obasan! =DD

the good old days...
is it a lie?
or is it just going further from us each day?
i dunno wad to think rite now.
i have a feeling that that will happen.
will i agree to it?
im more scared than happy.
am i going nuts?
am something tells me i'll go through wad he went through.
well... if tat's the case, she cant be blamed can she?
this is so confusing and complicated.
but at least i have my friends.
whom i know they wont leave just like that.
is this life better?

2009-06-29T19:26:00.002+08:00

wow! first day of term 3 not bad leh. lol! tot today will be so damn bored. oh gosh! so happy after that "thing". XD im so evil and mean. hohoho! XD

anw, went to sch and found out cant gather. D; so went back class. laugh laugh laugh wif obasanz. sneaked to library to return book. new teachers, new subjects, new exams. new chinese teacher was fun! =D geog teacher was kinda boring? eng and maths teacher havent meet yet.

recess also cannot go wif other classes somemore nid to sit at certain places. H1N1 ar! though we have to sacrifice, we have benefits too. =DD no swimming lessons! woohoo! so blah blah blah. den after sch went phyu cyn house.

in the bus stop, laughed wif lin sen, mindy and obasanz. in bus laugh wif the crazy one beside me. take air as friends. somemore have names. den say jurongville no boys. haiz... no hope liao.

den slacked at the playground. and go back phyu cyn house. did maths project. and chinese one too. finally finish den watched k.o.3. go home after that.

2009-06-28T12:28:00.003+08:00

Rules and regulation of the tag:
All 20 people must do unless you don't have a blog or no time.
Write the names of 20 friends you can think of in your head, And then answer the questions. After doing this, tag your 20 lucky friends to do the same.

1.Phyu Cyn
2.Ling yin
3.Hema
4.Lin Sen
5.Liping
6.Peilu
7.YingXiang
8.Sheng Mu
9.Shi Ting
10.Kah Keng
11.Zhen Hao
12.Lynette
13.Nisha
14.Wei Heng
15.Christopher
16.Chuan Jie
17.Shi Fu
18.Kelly
19.Bee Gim
20.Hamka

1. How did you meet (7)? (Ying Xiang)
lol! cousin.

2. What would you do if (15)and i had never met? (Christopher)
Tuba skills wont improve. TT and one senior gone!

3. What would you do if (20)and (1)dated? (Hamka & Phyu Cyn)
LOL! i want see wad happens. XD

4. Have you seen (17) cried? (Shi Fu)
Yea. think so.

5. Would (4)and (16) make a good couple? (Lin Sen & Chuan Jie)
They are straight.

6. Do you think (11)is attractive? (Zhen Hao)
Yea.

7. What's (2) favourite colour? (Ling Yin)
Oops! dunno. green or pink?

8. When was the last time you talked to (9)? (Shi Ting)
that time in arcade saw her coincidentally.

9. What languages does (8)speaks? (Sheng Mu)
English. Korean?

10. Who is (13)going out with? (Nisha)
lol! guess she dun have stead yet?

11. Would you ever date (17)? (Shi Fu)
No. We're straight.

12. Where does (18)live? (Kelly)
Erm... dunno leh.

13. What's the best thing about (10)? (Kah Keng)
he makes a rather good friend =D

14. What would you like to tell (3) right now? (Hema)
Thank you! =D

15. What's the best thing about (20)? (Hamka)
A damn funny senior

16. Have you ever kissed (2)? (Ling yin)
no

17. What's the best memory you have of (5)? (Liping)
Every time we spent together very fun leh. lol!

18. When’s the next time u gonna see (9)? (Shi Ting)
dunno.

19. How is (7)different from (6)? (Ying Xiang & Pei Lu)
Ying Xiang guy, Pei Lu girl.

20. Have you gotten into trouble with (8)? (Sheng Mu)
erm... dun think so ba.

21. Would you give (19)a hug? (Bee Gim)
Think so. Thanks for being such a good senior! =D

22. When have you lied to (3)? (Hema)
erm... dun think so ba.

23. Is (12) good at socializing? (Lynette)
she very quiet de. lol!

24. Do you know a secret about (16)? (Chuan Jie)
no.

25.Describe the relationship between (12)and (8) . (Lynette & Sheng Mu)
strangers?

26.What's the best thing about your friendship with (9)? (Shi Ting)
er.. fun!! =D

27. What's the worst thing about (4)? (Lin Seng)
erm... havent know his weakness. gonna dig out soon. muahahaha!

28. Do you have a crush on (12)? (Lynette)
no. different sch leh.

29. How long have you known (2)? (Ling yin)
6 months plus??

30. Does (11)have any girlfriend/boyfriend? (Zhen Hao)
dunno leh. he didnt tell me.

31. Have you wanted to punch (1)in the face? (Phyu cyn)
no la.

32. Have (20)saw your parents before? (Hamka)
no.

33. How did you meet (8)? (Sheng Mu)
Same class?

34. Did you ever accidentally physically hurt (13)? (Nisha)
dun have ba.

35. Did you live close to (16)? (Chuan Jie)
dunno where he live.

36. What's (8) favourite food? (Sheng Mu)
dunno leh. lol!

37. What kind of car does (7)have? (Ying Xiang)
lol! he have car? o.o

38.Have you ever travelled anywhere with (3)before? (Hema)
no where....

39. If you gave (15)a $100 ,What would he/she spent on? (Christopher)
lol! how i know?

40. Have you dreamed about (14)before? (Wei Heng)
think so.

Kena saboh-ed by Hui yin.

2009-06-26T21:34:00.003+08:00

Today went escape theme park wif obasanz without sheng mu. her mother dun allow her to go out. lin sen not free. so onli the 3 of us go wif neeta.

woke up at 8 this morning. chiong-ed bathing, preparing stuff and running to bus stop. coz ling yin on bus liao. and we have to take the same 187. the journey was so quiet. TT we keep sms other people. XP and i have weird feeling when i saw her. maybe last night thing ba. nvm. JY LINGYIN! I WAN HAPPY ENDING! =D PHYU CYN! I ALSO WAN UR HAPPY ENDING! =D

Finally, reached phyu cyn's house. and ling yin was high suddenly. lol! den we set off wif phyu cyn's father's car.

on the way, we went PIE. den her dad asked to look for PIE to connect to escape. but den everyone found escape but didnt find PIE. lol! den he found his way to escape. when we saw downtown east den they say " oh! i know how to go already!" lol! i was emo-ing then. so i dunno wad they laughing at. lol!

so, we reached escape, phyu cyn's father went home. we play play play. played damn lots of games. drenched wif water...

phyu cyn and ling yin on pirate ship

Phyu cyn and Ling yin at wet and wild

neeta at wet and wild

super hungry after those games. i was begging them to go and eat. graw! and finally, we went to mc wif phyu cyn parents.

ling yin concentrated on phyu cyn camera

went to k-box after that. ling yin sang the most. her voice was damaged after that. we were so high that when we singing love story the sad song, we keep jumping around.

went to have dinner at subway. go home wif phyu cyn's father's car again. on car, they created a cheer for me. oh, so honoured...NOT! wad a stupid cheer.. lol! ok. nvm. and we created a 2-lined song out of our randomness. was singing and laughing then.

haiz... dunno y post so short. maybe not in mood to post ba.